Life | Just Because

Assalamualaikum. 안녕

It's been a while. Again. Lazy mode struck in right after I finished my last entry (which was 8 months ago?). Let's just say, I couldn't find the momentum to update this site let alone to scribble an entry. It's always the 'something came up soon after I thought I'm in the mood to blog'. Same lame excuses. Gotta find a new phrase to replace that I guess. 

Anyways, I went back to Malaysia few months ago (early Mac) mainly to renew my visa. Because of the pandemic, I self-quarantined myself for 2 weeks upon arrival in Malaysia. Was supposed to be back to Seoul few days after completing the quarantine period but things went completely opposite as to what I've planned. Indeed, Allah is the Best Planner. 

Hence here I am today, back to my hometown. My ever-beloved Double K City. I got to go back after 3 months (plus) stranded in Kolumpor due to the Movement Order Control (MCO) & Conditional MCO. I celebrated my Eid Aidulfitri with my first cousins (whose tickets to balik kampung got cancelled). 

Initial plan was to go back to Kota Kinabalu end of March (after my 2 weeks quarantine). Because of the MCO, I purposely cancelled my flight ticket. Although I can apply for permission from the authority. I just don't wanna take the risk. I think that's the best way I can do to help curve down the virus' spread. 

2020 indeed is a year full of surprises. Who could have taught Malaysian most awaited Vision (Wawasan) 2020 would be in such way. I remember back then, we associate the image of flying cars filling the space & skyscrapers along with this Vision. Semua serba serbi maju. Gadget melantun-lantun canggih. Just like what we saw in the movies. Robots are created to assist us; human in daily chores (contoh). 

Alas, those imaginations / dreams cuma mampu kekal dalam kotak minda jaklah kan. Kapal terbang pun 'susah' mau terbang let alone car. Skyscraper tu oklah ada sudah terpacak few. Reality, memang jauh dari apa yang dibayangkan. 

It's been months since I last boarded the airplane; to travel. Last year Allah bagi rasa puas-puas. Every 2 - 3 months, naik kapal terbang & menikmati suasana negara orang. This year, Allah suruh 'rest'. Bersyukur sebenarnya, at least I have memories to cherish. Sudah pernah menjejak & merasa. 

Bab kes makin naik, TMCO, EMCO, itu ini...aku memang avoid to discuss in public. Lagipun dari bebel benda yang tidak contribute apa-apa, baiklah diam. Jaga diri & orang tersayang jak, easier that way. 

Ndak tau apa motif suddenly feeling the urge to log in this site. Pastu siap published new entry kan. Sebenarnya baru mau panaskan enjin. Niat mau sambung cerita my China Trip (yang sudah bertahun berlalu itu) tapi hard disc tinggal di Seoul. Semua gambar aku sudah transfer pi dalam tu, maka terkuburlah impian. 

Maybe akan update cerita trip Europe 2019. Tu jak yang masih dalam folder handphone ni. Insha Allah, soon. Harap tidak menjadi malas untuk kesekian kali.

Soon ok, soon. Wassalam.

eryantierdahabdulkarim

Dear Myself...

Assalamualaikum.

Pagi tadi, aku bangun dengan rasa semacam kosong di jiwa.
Ntahlah apa punca tapi aku rasa lost.

A text came in while I was having breakfast at the cafe.
Simple jak text tu tapi penuh rasa tersirat.
Perihal seorang teman bertanya khabar.

Last kami in touch was like last year. 
Masa itu dia ditimpa musibah; ujian besar dari Allah SWT.

Suddenly...

"Ntah kenapa tiba² pagi ni macam mau bercerita 
dengan kau, Bie."

Ya Allah!
Rasa macam kena smash direct di kepala. 
Aku yang lately ni selalu merungut itu ini tanpa sebab jelas.

Allah peringatkan aku dengan cara begini.
Allah detikkan hati teman itu untuk berkongsi cerita dengan aku.

Teman itu sekali lagi diuji tahun ini. 
Tempias terkena sekali pada yang dekat dengan dia.

Namun, dia masih tabah.
Insha Allah, akan lagi tabah.
Betapa tenang dia hadapi ujian dari Nya.

Benarlah, Allah uji hamba Nya sesuai tahap iman mereka.

Malunya aku. 
Yang aku risaukan, yang aku rungutkan this whole time.
Langsung tidak setaraf dengan apa yang dia sedang hadapi.

Sebesar kuman pun tidak layak untuk dibandingkan.

Belum layak benarnya kau complain serba serbi pasal life, Bie.
Sebab belum Allah uji kau the way she is tested. 

I just can't imagine kalau aku di tempat dia.
Obviously enough, masih jauh lagi journey aku.
Untuk diuji sebegitu rupa. 

Kerana tangga iman aku & teman itu.
Sangat jauh bezanya.

Dia sudah mendaki tinggi.
Sedang aku masih di takuk lama.

Macam makin jatuh.
Macam tiada perubahan.

Bila teman yang dilanda musibah, made effort untuk bertanya khabar.
Memang patut aku rasa macam mau tanam diri sendiri.

Terima kasih Allah.
Sedarkan aku sehalus ini.

Terima kasih teman.
Kerana sudi berkongsi dengan aku.

eryantierdabdulkarim

Prosperous Apr: Aja Aja Fighting Chompok!

Assalamualaikum. 안녕!

*sigh* It all started last Sun night. Chompok vomited yellowish liquid at around 8-ish. At first I thought it was Chomel who vomited on my bed. But found out later when I saw Chompok at one corner of the dining area; coughing before vomiting. That; enough to break my heart.

He vomited every half an hour since then. I had a restless sleep that night as well. I woke up automatically every time he coughed. Chompok is such a dear little kitty. He knew I was sleeping on the bed, hence every time he feels like vomiting he quickly jumped from the bed. Albeit not as energetic like always...he jumped; still.

I brought him to see the vet early yesterday morning. The vet told me maybe he has consumed something such as insects (cockroach or lizard). The dormant protozoa in every cat's stomach unfortunately reacted to what he consumed causing irritation to his internal system. Hence the vomiting. The blood test also showed some of his red blood cells are no longer in normal shape; indicating the presence of parasites & bacteria.

Chompok has refused to eat nor drink. He looks extremely weak I nearly burst into tears upon seeing his droopy eyes. He was given six injections consisting of water, antibiotics, vitamin & God knows what. He was prescribed with a medicine to stop him from vomiting. But I didn't give him because he stopped vomiting after the injections. Chompok is a fighter. He didn't even fight back when the needles penetrated his skin. He sat still; while looking at me. I told him to get better asap so we don't have to see the vet again. 

This was last night. Cheeloh showing his love to Chompok. Usually they will wrestle in between this session but for the time being, Chompok is just too tired & weak to play. I simply miss the playful him! No more sight of him jumping around whenever I fold my blanket in the morning. No one to play with my ponytail every time I combed my hair. Even Cafe misses him. Cafe has no one to play hide & seek with anymore. 

This morning, I brought him to the vet for the second time. His body is dehydrating, so the vet gave him another shots like what he had yesterday. But today, he was given ten injections altogether. 

During the eighth shot, Chompok tried to stand up & jumped from the table. Maybe he had had enough of the meds inside his body. Maybe he can't stand the sore anymore. I was advised to bring him again tomorrow. 

I have decided, if he still haven't gain his health back...I will try the traditional way. Feed him with more santan. I did that to Cheeloh years back. When the vet told me there's no hope for Cheeloh to survive, I didn't give up & I brought Cheeloh home with tears. Alhamdulillah, after days of forcing him to swallow the santan...he gradually became healthy again. And he is still healthy until now. I will do the same to Chompok...I will try my best. I hope he will be strong enough to be healthy again. 

If everything failed after trying, I wouldn't regret. For I know, I had tried my best & never once had I neglected my responsibility ever since I took him in months ago. Kakak prays for ur speedy recovery dear little darling!

eryantierdabdulkarim

Prosperous Apr: Study (공부)

Assalamualaikum. 안녕!

Back to my online Korean class after months of putting the lessons aside. I've completed until Level Newbie 2 already. I know it's still a long way to go but I will never give up. 

Can't wait for June! Obviously I've been counting days since the day I got the flight ticket confirmed. The rest of the ladies in the upcoming trip assigned me as the guide. They seriously didn't know what they had gotten themselves into. 

Bersamalah kita berayam itik di sana if suddenly I lost the confidence to converse. I could only uttered four words confidently...Hello (안녕하세요), Thank You (감사합니다), Sorry (미안) & I Know (알아). The rest, masih stuck di kerongkong. Sekian.

eryantierdabdulkarim

Buang Tabiat: Misi 10 Hari

Assalamualaikum. Annyeong.

Alhamdulillah. I have secured a seat with AirAsiaX this evening. So much of planning for a family vacation I ended up being the only one(??) with a confirmed flight. This is what I dislike about online payment. Now, to whose shoulder should I put the blame on? Grrr. I pray hard there will be another promotion by the airline in the near future.

The fare now varies few hundreds from the fare that I paid. Late by only 20 minutes & the fare rocketed. Too much difference; Bunda & her sisters quickly waved the "Hold the purchase" flag. And that means the cousins are forced to agree as well.

The ticker says another 8 months before the winter trip...hence I will patiently wait for them to get their flight tickets. Dear AAx, please hold another promotion. Or just reduce the price in  few months from now.

It's rather devastating if I still have to go alone although I have been singing the words "another solo trip" quite a lot recently. We have planned to have this trip since last year thus the reason why I feel a bit regret if it didn't sail as planned. Phew...frustration phase it is at the moment.

To this I will let time decide. I have two more trips to focus on before I welcome December with a headache. Come to think of it; perhaps it's about time for me to wander alone again?? I was suppose to have my second solo trip to that country this June but three of the girlfriends decided to tagged along. As much as I long for my Me Moment, I know another ladies trip would be of great idea.

Experiencing the snowfall has always been in my wishlist. But playing the snow alone ain't fun at all. Yes? It never crossed my demented mind to experience winter alone. 혼자? Really NOT intriguing at all!

Yet, if all else fails I might then have to make myself ready with what Ms M told me just now.

Mulakan misi 10 hari mencari cinta di sana! Eh?

p/s Paling gila kalau bercutian secara solo di musim sejuk...paling susah mau selca ok. Tangan menggigil tu mau ambil gambar sendiri. Huuuuuuhuuuu.

eryantierdabdulkarim

Buang Tabiat: Post-weekend Mood!

Assalamualaikum. Annyeong.

I'm having the weekend rest deficiency syndrome at this current moment!!! I didn't get my most deserved rest this time hence the drama. Last Sat, I went to bed at 230a. Woke up way too early the next morning; that's yesterday. I was supposed to wake up another couple of hours but Angah piercing voice invaded my calm Sunday morning. Membebel non stop...ugh!

Yeah, Angah is in town. Pakcik & the not-so-little cousin tagged along this time. Surprise arrival kunun! She's here to settle matters regarding the house renovation in Telipok.  It's been a year since the renovation took place...yet, only 80% of the work has completed to date. The amount of money spent could be used to build another single-storey house. That's how lousy the contractors who have been appointed did their work. Tiga kali tukar sebab semua buat kerja macam ayam mati. Duit mau, kerja nan ado.

Fine, tujuan entri adalah untuk curhat ketidakselesaan diri. Oh God, how I long for the weekend to arrived early! 빨리와주세요! Friday will be a public holiday for Sabahan! Oh yeah, early weekend for yours truly. I think I need to do something with myself. Pembersihan jiwa. Sebab selalu rasa gelisah ndak tentu arah. 

Monday blues caught me good this time. Tried hard to balance my fluctuating mood. Two of the workers didn't show up adding more stress to the already not so great mood. Or perhaps menses coming soon hence the unstable me. Hmm.

eryantierdabdulkarim

Prosperous Feb: Dot Dot Pimples

Assalamualaikum. Annyeong.

Pimples attack on the forehead! Stomach cramp every now & then. Not to forget, mild dizziness. And yeah, uncontrollable appetite! Long intro short...menses visiting, soon!

It's a relief having menses while travelling...I don't have to worry about having to perform my prayer. One of Allah's most precious gifts whenever I'm out exploring places. Apart from keeping me safe throughout my trip. 

I had my menses on the fourth day of my trip last June...and when I told the bestie it wasn't the time I should be having my cycle; she said to me "Allah bagi kau berjalan puas². Dia permudahkan." Enough to make me stop complaining & be grateful instead. Alhamdulillah. 

Like what had occurred in every trips before...I guess next week's is of no exception. I have more than 5 dots on my forehead at the moment; clearly indicating that menses will definitely come visiting soon.

Initially, I thought of performing my prayer at a place with less people in the theme park. I pray that spot exists. But much to my surprise, after few searching in the web I found out about the prayer room provided by the authority. Syukur. Problem solved. 

Yet like the bestie said, Allah bagi kau jalan. I'm having the pre-M syndrome since yesterday. I know I shall not gripe about this...but I can't hide the fact that I dislike the pimples. The ones that came tagging with the menses. Spoiler big time! 

Pictures say it all. While travelling I paid no attention to the dots. All I know was that I need to enjoyed myself & appreciate the journey. Only when I reached home will I be stressed about them. That is when I look at my photos. Lucky I ain't drama enough to photoshop the dots before printing the pictures. Let them be there; they deserved to be in the pictures. 

eryantierdabdulkarim

Prosperous Feb: Cuti Empat Hari

Assalamualaikum. Annyeong.

Oh yeah...dengan rasmi boleh lekat tanda "Boring Lady" sudah di dahi aku. Cuti empat hari aku kasi langsai sehabis kudrat. Rightttttttttt.

On Saturday, I spent the whole day at home! Bagus jugalah decision aku ndak mau jalan pigi mana² because I managed to complete few chapters of my Hanguk lessons. Kalau merayap sana sini lagi banyak aku melebur duit nanti. Malam tu download few of UKE's latest talks. Yay, ada bahan baru mau didengar dalam kereta.

And on Sunday, I managed to force my lazy bum to go out. Initial plan was to drive to Ranau with Ms Z. But Icha's mom tagged me in IG, informing about Icha's kenduri cukur jambul. Hence, we changed plan. Meriah sikit cuti aku yang hambar sebab kemalasan diri sendiri.

Berbaju kurung untuk attend dua kenduri. Donning the tudung I bought from sugarscarf. Super like the material...also the corak. Ndak pernah meroyan suka tudung express. Ni kalilahhh!

Pagi tu before naik Ranau, singgah dulu tempat Ms. K in Tuaran. Ndak sempat kami join berzanji & gunting jambul semua sebab kesuntukan masa. Yang penting, dapat jumpa sekejap. Update cerita semasa. 

Icha with her aunties; Mak Lang & Mak Uda. How time flies...macam baru jak budak kenit ni lahir bah.

Ummi Err & Ummi Zai with Auni*Nafisah binti Amrin. 

Adat kalau datang kenduri. Before balik, kena jamu perut biar sedikit. Menjaga hati tuan rumah, juga supaya orang yang mau jalan jauh macam kami...ndak kempunan. 

Selesai di Tuaran, we drove up to Ranau. Alhamdulillah selamat pergi & kembali. Albeit the gloomy weather...hujan sekali sekala. Tujuan utama mau jumpa Ms P yang berkurun kami ndak jumpa. Alang² dijemput to his lil bro's wedding reception. Sambil menyelam, minum air. 

Hidangan kami serba unik di sana. Nasi bungkus dalam daun ntah apa...it's purple. Beras pulut + ubi manis. My fav dish pun ada. Memang makan ndak hengat! Aku balun daging dari pagi sampai malam...

As a result, I had to cancel the plan to attend my cousin's wedding yesterday evening. I vomited almost everything I consumed soon after I reached home from Ranau. Cholesterol overload. Sesak dada tahan mual. Belum campur rasa minyak geli² di tekak. Serve me right! Makan ndak pernah beringat. Balun jak semua yang dihidang depan mata. Sudah lemah longlai baru menyesal bagai.

Having said that, yesterday aku berehat di rumah. Detoxified my system. By late evening, sudah beransur sihat. Lepas withdraw berkali² baru rasa lapar gila. Tapi harus makan dengan berhemah. 

To conclude my four days holiday...I went out after Zohor just now. Bawa si Chombee ni melawat Bunda's place in Sepanggar. Dari pagi bising meow non stop depan pintu, gian mau outing lah tu. So I brought him out, ambil udara luar. Sampai kedai...buat perangai mengada ndak mau jalan bagai. Chis! 

Tomorrow kena bangun awal. Fuh betapa malas diri ini! Luckily another three days before the weekend. Next week insya Allah tiba masa cuti release stress! My first out of KK town holiday in 2013. Yiihaa!!

eryantierdabdulkarim

Wonderful Jan: Annyeong Chichil

Assalamualaikum. Annyeong.

Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Allah gives me another opportunity to adopt a kitten today. Words couldn’t explain how happy I am.

On my way to cafe this morning, I received a call from Bunda. She told me to stop by any vet to buy med for an injured cat. I know that Bunda & her workers feed a cat & a kitten at the restaurant. The Mom & her child will come to the restaurant early in the morning for breakfast, lunch in the afternoon & later dinner in the late evening. Literally they aren’t stray cats because they sleep at the garage at a house behind the restaurant.

Upon being told that the Mom was bitten & beaten by five stray dogs;  I rushed to a nearby vet. Bunda said the Mom was severly injured; bleeding & too weak to move.  The one clinic I happened to know is in Kingfisher. Situated right next to the clinic I always bring my workers for their medical check up.

Alas, when I reached Bunda’s place...she’s already gone. I was late by 5 minutes!!! It breaks my heart upon seeing the wounds on her body. She must have suffered too much. I hold my tears when I saw the bloods on his coat. I put her on my laps & I could smell her urine. Her coat near her rear legs was damped. God! The pain must have been unbearable she pees on her own coat.

Suddenly I heard a soft meow. And I saw a kitten under a car; too scared to go out. Seems rather confuse as if he was searching for his mom. He ran out from his hiding place as soon as one of Bunda’s worker laid down his Mom’s remain on the road. He walked slowly; encircling his dead Mom. That definitely breaks my heart even more. How can I leave him alone on the street like that? He has no one to look after him. His Mom died protecting him from being harm by the stray dogs. Seeing him so lost...I immediately made up my mind. That is to bring this kitten home. Regardless what Bunda has to say. All I know now is to save him. What if the stray dogs come again later tonight? It scares to me to imagine what’s gonna happened to him.

Alhamdulillah, Bunda didn’t oppose my intention to bring the kitten. I told Bunda I have name for him already. Chichil! The initial C has to be used of course.

I lost Chubby to a viral disease. Chumi & Cicil fell down from the window while I was at work. Chumi had never been found while Cicil; I saw him at one of my neighbour’s house not long after his disappearance. Being taken care so handsomely I decided to just let him be with his new family. Bukan rezeki aku untuk jaga. It’s not like he’s being abandoned nor abused there. If that’s the case, harus aku pigi menyerang & jemput Chichil balik.

Now, I hava a new child. Named Chichil. NOT to replace the previous Cicil but to celebrate his present healthy life. The moment I made up my mind to take him, I realized the bigger responsibility awaits me. Insya Allah. Rezeki from Allah comes in various forms. Having Chichil is one of them; I believe that.

Chichil took his first vaccine shot just now. I bought him a collar band; specially designed to kill fleas. He lives on the streets, remember. His coat must have them. Smart way to prevent infection among the children at home, yes?

I can’t wait to take him home & bathe him! Kasi wangi. But I can’t imagine what will Cafe reacts later on? What will he do to show his jealousy? Some kinda rebel act, perhaps? They will be the bestest of friend in no time...let’s pray for that. Ngek.

Ya Allah, tidak ku harap balasan dari Mu dengan apa yang aku perbuat. Kerana aku tahu, tiada aku punya hak untuk itu. Rahmat Mu, rezeki yang Kau kurniakan kepadaku sudah lebih dari cukup. Tidak terbilang olehku. Namun aku bermohon, andai mampu aku meminta...dengan apa yang aku telah perbuat, moga Kau kurangkan dosa ku yang menggunung tinggi.

eryantierdabdulkarim

Wonderful Jan: Kpop! Ngek!

Assalamualaikum. Annyeong.

I listened to their music ever since The Boys; their single in 2011 came to my hearing sometime Nov, last year. I fell in love with the music...and eventually the girls. Nine very hardworking & pretty young lasses. I started reading their stories after their debut. Ain't gonna called myself one of the Sone as yet though I listened to their songs almost every day. Not to forget youtube-ing their MVs.

Because those mellyjelly so-called cute-ish kinda songs are never my taste. Unfortunately, most of the girls' songs are like that.

So-nyeoh Shidae latest single; I Got A Boy...really showed that the girls have matured through the years. Regardless what others say...yang penting aku suka lagu tu. And yeah, MV adalah super comel. With that PINK background, shall I say more?

Sekian, terima kasih.

eryantierdabdulkarim

Edisi: Lembaran Baru!

Assalamualaikum. Annyeong!

1. Semoga kita sentiasa dilimpahi dengan berkat & redha dari Yang Esa. Insya Allah, amin! 
2. Semoga aku kurang mengeluh - perangai yang dari zaman dulu kala mau dibasmi tapi selalu gagal. Kurang mencuba; sangat sangat sangat less effort sebenarnya.
3. Semoga aku lebih memahami & mengamalkan konsep 'bersyukur dengan apa yang diberi' - selalu lupa diri, baru diuji sikit laju jak lupa segala nikmat & rezeki melimpah ruah yang sudah Allah bagi.
4. Semoga mampu tahan marah - Alhamdulillah yang ni aku berjaya control ever since aku tanam azam yang super bersungguh ni.
5. Semoga sentiasa mau menjadi lebih baik. Sentiasa mau belajar ilmu baru. Sentiasa mau mencari keampunan dari-Nya. Sentiasa berusaha menjadi muslimah solehah.

Banyak lagi azam yang ditanam; insya Allah akan cuba sebaik mungkin untuk capai. New year resolutions ni selalu aku tulis dalam buku magika masa Awal Muharam. Alhamdulillah, yang ni aku cuba amalkan since last three years. Masih diteruskan up till now.

2012 meninggalkan seribu satu kenangan sama aku. Pahit. Manis. Asam. Tawar. Syukur! Allah masih bagi peluang aku rasa semua tu. Syukur! Masih ada peluang untuk bernafas di bumi Nya. 

Aku berdoa semoga diberikan peluang untuk bertaubat. Peluang untuk aku membersihkan hati. Juga peluang untuk appreciate sebanyak mana keindahan alam ciptaan-Nya. In order words; may I be granted more opportunities to travel & see the world. *mata berkelip². 

Unlike last year, I posted an entry that listed down those beautiful things that happened to me throughout 2011. This year....aku plan buat something else. Wait & see.

Anyway, to wrap this up...I wish u a bless 2013 reader(s)! Great fortune, good lucks & many blessings!

eryantierdabdulkarim

Buang Tabiat: Aku suka KOMPLEN

Assalamualaikum. Annyeong.

I've been deserting this site quite frequent these days. Loads of things to scribble yet too little effort made to put them in words. Caught myself up with too many useful stuffs lately. Useful as I called them but ridiculous as per Bunda. Tetttt!

I took pictures on various events; with the intention to get them posted in here. But, they were left untouched in the phone's folder. Neglected. I don't favour the idea to upload them ALL in instagram*. IG has turned into a rather boring app for me; recently. I just don't get the idea, why do people have to upload every single picture they took. Because from my understanding, IG is about the 'at the moment picture'. 

Just because u wanted to tell ur friends, u're making a single dish...u decided to upload the step-by-step pictures. Hana hana?!? Not in a grid nor collage. But every single pictures throughout the whole process of making! 

Forgive me if I'm being narrow minded, but I can't seem to tolerate with such thing for now. Not only were the pictures uploaded in IG, they're also in FB. The very reason why I hid them from appearing in my news feed. It's torturing to have to scroll down until the very bottom because of the long-list of updated pictures. Worse, even after hitting the tab 'more posts' at the bottom page...more pictures appeared. Like; ain't there any updates from my other friends? 

It's a different story if IG is used as a medium to expand ur e-shop. That I can totally understand. But to have the step-by-step pictures? From the ingredients, to preparations, to the end result? Phew, it's just too much for me to digest.

And oh the pictures taken every second; do they all needed to be uploaded? Same background, same subject(s)...just a slight different smile or face expressions. I got it u're in the car heading to somewhere. So, stop! Don't upload until u've reached ur destination. Update me when u're there already. IG doesn't have the 'hide' tab YET. Hence I guess I just have to endure with ur impulsive need to upload & upload. I can't delete u from the follower list because u're one of those friends I value.

Being human, there's always something to whine about. But that doesn't mean I should ditch u. Nor judge everything u did. Part upload terlebih tu jak bikin aku headache. Maafkan gue! Sekian.

Chop! 'You' refer to more than one person by the way.

eryantierdabdulkarim

Buang Tabiat: Bercakap-cakap

Assalamualaikum. Annyeong.

Study week is approaching yet the number of students coming to the cafe remains unchanged. If before they came swarming; now they came in small group but continuously. The swelling on my left shoulder has spread to the right. I tried relieving the aching shoulder by doing some massage but to no avail. The pain could become unbearable at times. So yesterday, I decided to pay the tukang urut that massaged Aunty’s swollen arm; a visit. I left the cafe early because I have other errands to do before the urut session.

Settled my urusan at the traffic  first. I had four unpaid tickets; purposely ignore to pay the summons since last year. Great mind like moi always enjoyed the idea of donating moolah to unnecessary things, yes?! Thus at the summon payment counter, I happily ‘donated’ few hundred Ringgits. Thanks to Bunda for buzzing nonstop about it. Else, memang selamanya buat² lupa bayar. Will only start to act panic when a love letter arrived at the pigeon-hole; I guess.

Later after picking up cafe’s new uniforms, it’s massage session!! Semangat membara! I headed straight to WM. Only to be told that the tukang urut was on leave that day. Great, just darn great! Apparently another brilliant side of moi emerged. Why u no use ur brain to give her a call first lah Bie!!! Fortunately, I've made an appointment this Sunday. Hopefully janganlah aku kelupaan.

On another story, I think something changed in me recently. I have never gained enough patience when it comes to watching a drama by episodes. I repeat, NEVER. My whole life I wouldn't allow myself to agree to thing as such. Back then when watching drama(s) through the television, I skipped most of the episodes; specially in between the intro & ending. I am always excited to watch the first two episodes & the finale.

Nowadays, I can have the whole episodes of a drama in less than a week. Haruslah kan! I opted to watch the first three episodes & directly jumped to the final episode. I just can't stand too much melancholics & dramas in a drama. Important part is how it begins...and how it ends. Only after I've watch the last episode will I resume watching the remaining episodes. Talk about the not so adventurous me! Sakit jiwa, sesak nafas mau tau apa kesudahan kisah hero heroin...pastu mau tau mati ka ndak si Penjahat. Bengkak dada wei tengok betapa evil watak si Penjahat; one after another jahat dibuat tapi susah gila kantoi.

BUT, I don't know how on earth I could tolerate with the Kdrama I am currently watching. I-Miss-You. I waited for each episode to be downloadable; patiently. Every week. I watched them; episode by episode. Thing I never thought I would do! Albeit curiosity shoot up; I am able to control it. Memang kalau umur makin sikit akan ada sindrom beginikah? Hmm interesting!

Anyway, I am in the midst of downloading another Kdrama. A time-travel kind of drama will entertain me soon. Yang ni ala² RooftopPrince. I decided to watch it after reading quite good reviews about this drama in the web.

Well Q*ueen In-hyeon's Man...u better be worth my fortyeighthours of download time.

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Edisi: Faith

We meet again after five good years. Wall I once built simply to isolate u from my life...had long collapsed. Leaving no trace of its existence. I didn't know when it happened. But one thing for sure, I appreciate this friendship more these days.

Gone has the hatred. Gone has the bitterness. Gone has the grudges. 

I believe time does really heal the wounds. The past matured me. Knowing u enjoying ur life with ur beloved little family make me feel so delighted. 

It is fate that we met & fell in love. It is also fate that we separated. It is fate that brings us where we are now. Allah has written our journey ever since He created us. And they are written wonderfully indeed. 

I am forever grateful for the decision we chose. I shall not question what The Almighty has plan for His slaves. 

Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah! This tranquil feeling is beyond words to be describe.

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Edisi: Great Companionship

Assalamualaikum. Annyeong.

Life has been wonderful these past few days. Alhamdulillah for Your blessings Ya Rabb. Weekend passed by too fast I didn't expect it will end this soon. 

Meeting the Girlfriends over tea last Sunday. It's been months since we last met. Too many stories to share yet too little time we had.

Tea cum dinner at Lucy's Kitchen, Kepayan. A new eatery place suggested by Ms. U. First time jejak kaki upon this recently most-talk cafe. Nice ambiance & most importantly; regardless the creative decorations & settings, the price is pretty affordable.

And I successfully stuffed my tummy with truckload of food during the weekend. I had tomyam & wedges for dinner with Bunda on Saturday. Lamb chop for the tea cum dinner session on Sunday.

Now its definitely time to 'detox'. I will consume only bread & cake this whole week.

Sekian.

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Edisi: Occupied I am

Assalamualaikum. Annyeong.

*poyo mode* I've been busy. With stuffs at the cafe, with plannings on my next holidays *insya Allah*, with this, with that...

and yeah, obviously I've found another Kdrama to entertain my so-called bored evening. So much of claiming to be busy, huh. My eternal Kdrama-supplier rendered me speechless when she handed me quite a list of must-watch dramas. And she literally killed me when she gave me the blogsites that provide downloadable dramas. 

My current obsession. I watch this mainly because of the casts. Eun Hye from my forever favourite Kdrama; PrincessHours. And Micky; the leading actor from the recent hit drama RooftopPrince. Close friends specially those from high school sure know my obsession towards 'mata sepet' guy. Apart from super macho deep voice, I easily fall for those kinda eyes. Super tusuk jantung! Tettt.

Well that means I have more concrete reason to stay at home during the weekend. Rather than go out & spend my moolah over ridiculous things. Yes? Furthermore, it's like sorta opportunity for me to stick firmly with my saving plan. Most of the times, it is rather scary to list down what I bought every time I go out. And it's also the reason why I opted to NOT keep my money in the bank. I really don't wanna become one of those online shopping addict.

Erk, I was at that stage once...hence, I am trying reaaaaaaaaaaaaally hard to not get stuck in there again. Anyhow, I can't wait to hear stories from my cousin. Her 6-days holiday to Japan came to its end today. Through her pics she uploaded, I am pretty sure she has one helluva trip! Oh, bilakah tiba waktuku?

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Buang Tabiat: Cemburu Gila!

Assalamualaikum. Annyeong. Kon'nichiwa!

*drama mode activated*

While Bunda is shouting her lung out watching the football match in front of the black screen tele. 

While I am busy determining places of interest to visit for my Feb trip; at the same downloading Kdramas; also watching Suju + BB in MAMA 2012 Award via youtube...

beloved cousin; Uly is now enjoying every second of her life in Japan! She; together with her uncle & two cousins departed to Tokyo yesterday morning. After nearly months imagining how Japan looks like, after nearly months telling me how excited she is for the trip...and right now, she has set her foot upon the Land of the Rising Sun. Alhamdulillah; they arrived in one piece!

Fyi, that lady with the green bag isn't Japanese albeit her look! Itu pure blood Malaysian. *flip hair* Kentara bah kan jeles berabis!!

I commanded her to tag me in every pictures she uploaded in her facebook! Peduli sana muntah darah meninguk gambar orang. Cari penyakit menghancur jiwa sendiri!

Of course I am uber happy for her. At such age, she is already backpacking to somewhere outside Malaysia. Aku adalah cemburu habis meter, just to be precise  How I wish I could join them! Tapi apakan daya, I had my pockets burnt already. No more holidays for me until the year ends. 

Cukuplah twice a year Bie, sila berpada bila mahu merealisasi impian. Sila jangan tamak. Pelan² kayuhlah, kan. Insya Allah, ur time will come. At the mean time, disiplin diri untuk rajin saving! Bukan malar tabur duit di sana sini ntah hapa jak dibeli!

p/s Perangai: Suka excited on behalf orang yang pigi bercuti. Pastu seteghes sebab ndak dapat join.

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Edisi: Heh!?

Assalamualaikum. Annyeong.

Weekend passed by too fast I reckoned. I woke up this morning feeling too restless. It’s like weekend drained out my energy. 

I've been feeling a bit weary for the past few days; while trying my best ignoring things that bring nothing beneficial to my life. Putting them aside instead of dealing with them had brought me to this phase today. Too big a toll to pay for something I could avoid from the very beginning.

I can’t recall how I ended up standing at this road. Overflowing; caused by swallowing too much of this & that. I nearly vomited all those shits this morning. Alhamdulillah, a voice suddenly awakened me. I was quite surprised how I managed to force myself to suck everything up albeit the bitterness.

Just now, I was about to vent my anger when the voice appeared; warning me to calm down. And keep reminding; I wouldn't like it myself if I were to be the punching bag for something I have no idea about. For something I have no relation whatsoever. With very little energy left, I tried pulling myself together. To not do nor say something I will pretty much regret later. Too many times I’d allowed myself hurting innocent people with my nasty words. For the sake of what I called my uncontrollable anger; just to cover my guilt. Also to justify my immature action.

It only took little thing to ignite the 'not in the zone' mode considering I've been in & out the zone since last month. I succeeded before; pushing the negative feeling away. But definitely NOT today because the system seems to can not handle any longer. 

First, it's the airfare difference. Like, for real huh. Airfare difference could change my mood in an instance. Drama enough! And later a message I received from a girlfriend; made me feel even worse. I just can't think straight upon receiving her message. I tried looking for answers but to no avail. I was indeed being too emotional about it. Yet, another message I received from her late in the evening has somehow lightened me up. It took me hours to realize that the hibernation room has opened its door to us. Just that she went there a bit early than me thus explained the sudden drama. 

Insya Allah, thing will get back to its right track in no time. I pray we wouldn't spend too much time in the room. There's so many beautiful things in life need to be cherished. Phew, I am one happy lady today. I wrapped my day with a wide smile engraved in my heart. Alhamdulillah, another success in controlling my anger. Another success in managing my drama side. 

p/s Serius melampau bingai kan, mengeluh ndak tentu arah. Pening ndak tentu arah. Yang tiada² bah. Belum kau rasa hidup di Gaza tu Bie oii. Langsung ndak da kesempatan mau fikir itu ini. Sila abai perangai bertabiat bingai kau tu ah. Be grateful already!

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Edisi: Jiwa Koyak

Assalamualaikum. Annyeong.

Yesterday evening, on my way back home Bunda suddenly called. First I thought she wanted me to stop by at the market to buy something. But I was no longer in my right mind the moment she told me that Cafe was gone. He was no where to be seen in the house. Seriously, whenever it comes to the Children...I could be a bit emotional. Most of the time; over emotional! Everything related to them is of priority. They ranked somewhere in the upper level. 

I can accept if the children left me due to thing that is beyond my power. For instance; death. Albeit mourning & grieving would definitely take place BUT at least I know they went to a better place. Yet, went missing is too harsh a reality for me to swallow. I couldn't sleep well; I couldn't stop my mind from imagining frightful things. Where will they be sleeping during the night, have they eaten...and if they had, what did they eat. Yadda yadda. 

After I parked my car, I immediately took out the flash light. Female driver like moi loves to prepare things for rainy days. *sempatlah kan puji diri* Bunda was already waiting for me at the parking lot. Soon after getting out from the car, she told me she saw something 'blackie' under one of the neighbor's car but she wasn't sure if it's him or not. I sacrificed my newly washed jeans; kneeled down on the wet muddy ground just for Cafe. Alhamdulillah, turned out it was really him. 

But the most painful part arrived the moment I flashed the light over his face. I trembled when I saw blood stains all over his right ear. Also his chin. Bunda took him out & held him in her arms. I can't stand seeing his confused & in-pain face. Not to mention his feeble meow. Simply heart breaking! Once inside the house, I burst into tears upon seeing the blood. Bunda asked me to hold Cafe while she cleaned him up. I was trembling for God sake. I couldn't bear to see his teary eyes! No tears of course! I ain't that drama queen lah. 

Because he can't endure the pain or perhaps he was still in shocked after falling from the second floor of the apartment unit...he pulled out his claws. And grip my hand. Firmly. I tried to calm him down but it only lasted for few seconds before he struggled to escape again. As the wounds are still new, Bunda decided to not directly touch them. She dabbed the wet tissues around the wounds & later cover them up with the antibiotics powder. Lucky we still have that at home. 

Cafe didn't sleep with me last night...so yeah, I felt a bit awkward for he is one of my most loyal bedmates apart from Cheeloh. Tried to call him from the bedroom but he ignored me. He only stayed on the bed for less than a minute before going back under the cabinet in the living room. This morning before leaving for work, I applied the powder once more. 

Honestly, I didn't quite concentrate despite being busy at the cafe. Thus I went home early. Alhamdulillah, I managed to wash the blood stains on Cafe's face. Also around his ears'. I succeeded in convincing that I was gonna cleanse him. So he lied down on my lap, willingly 'showing' his injured side to me. I did the dressing with so much ease. He no longer struggles to run away from me. After a good twenty minutes of cleansing & wiping, Cafe is back to his handsome-self. Except for his chin though. He meows every time I try to clean the area so I take it as 'not here please, it hurts...still' kinda sign from him. 

Cafe has shown signs of him recovering. He got his appetite back. And he is already sitting on his favorite spot in my room. He even took a quick nap on my chest just now. It's just a matter of time before he started running around the house again.

Bliss! I couldn't put the exact feeling in words. Above all, I thank Allah for still giving me the opportunity to take care of Cafe. Syukran Ya Rabb. 

 

From my instagram. I just don't get it, WHY this picture was being 'liked'. Seriously?

Cafe immensely enjoying the moment being pampered! 

Taken few days before the unfortunate incident. He was contemplating; whether to read the book or to apply the face mask! Aigoo.

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Buang Tabiat: Meroyan

Assalamualaikum. Annyeong.

Hari ni adalah hari meroyan sedunia untuk aku. Dari pagi aku rasa macam mau sepak orang. Semua pun serba ndak kena. Yes, si Err memang kaki blame circumstances kalau suddenly dia rasa macam things are not going the way she wants them to be. 

This month alone, I've met three super brilliant people in KK. Brilliant enough to not even care about the safety of others. Apa barang mau risau nyawa orang lain, kalau nyawa sendiri pun ndak dipeduli. Kan?!?!

Seriously, kalau betul rasa mau bunuh diri...baik buat tempat yang ndak da orang. Yang langsung ndak akan melibatkan orang lain. Kalau langsung tiada rasa sayang sama nyawa sendiri, silakan drive kereta tu laju² & terjun gaung. Banyak tu jalan bukit bukau sepanjang Tamparuli-Ranau. Pilih jak which cliff u like to jump off from. Ndak pun, tekan minyak berabisan & langgar lori balak yang ber-parking. Senang.

Way better a solution dari kau sibuk bertelefon while refueling. Memang tempah maut paling bingai! Ramai lagi kot orang di fuel station tu yang masih mahu hidup lama. Jadi ndak payah susah² bunuh diorang. Besar bah signboard di station tu. Dilarang Menggunakan Telefon Bimbit. No Mobile Phone. Itu pun susah kah mau faham. Ndak pandai baca, tapi simbol bergambar kan ada. Apakah perlu jadi pintar berabisan. 

Lagi haru kes pagi tadi...sioknya si Ibu ni berketawa while talking on the phone. Anak tiga orang bah di belakang. The husband was in the midst of refueling. Betul aku ndak paham! Kau ndak sayang nyawa kau, ndak palah. Tapi nyawa budak tiga orang di belakang tu? Tau cuak masa aku sound...tapi ndak kan tiap kali kau jadi bingai gitu mesti mau ada orang tegur baru kau stop?! Kan?! 

Yang attendants di fuel station pun satu hal...gila punya takut mau tegur orang bingai begitu. Kunun atas alasan; customer. Or takut kena marah. Aduyai. When life is of concern, cogan kata Customer is Always Right tu bolehlah kau buang dalam longkang ah. It is ur bloody duty to tell that brilliant customer. Kalau kena marah² or maki², senang jak. Report to ur manager. Kalau manager pun jadi tikus, make a police report then!

Rules are made by reasons. NOT to trouble us! So please; to those so-called cool people...sila berhenti jadi bingai. As I said earlier, IF u really can't wait to end ur life...do it elsewhere. Tempat yang ndak akan involve orang lain.

But again! Kalau kau pilih terjun gaung, kau still akan menyusahkan orang kot. Yalah, satu kerja pula kan mau cari mayat kau di bawah sana. Kalau kau pilih mau langgar lori balak yang ber-parking, pun satu hal juga. Kesian nanti driver lori balak tu disoal siasat ditanya itu ini. Padahal yang bingai tu kau. Sudah jadi mayat, mana boleh lagi kau bagi statement sama abang Polis kan. Paling pun nanti family kau blame driver tu.

Phew!! Pusing mana pun, life memang tetap akan involve orang lain. Sudah mati pun, masih tetap kot 'perlu' pertolongan orang lain.

Ok, sila stop mumbling Bie!

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