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Assalamualaikum...Selamat Sejahtera

First & foremost, salam Eid-ul-Adha to all Muslims out there. I know I am of 1 day late to wish but it's the thought that counts; as the saying goes. 

I've abandoned this blog for 2 days...and I know if I continue to ignore its existence, it will last for a little bit longer. Hence I decided to at least scribble an entry today as I've promised myself to write daily. Nothing much happened since last Friday. Things sailed pretty much the same. Migraine is sticking loyal with me; still. Albeit my wide smile in pics below I was actually putting the throbbing painful headache aside for the sake of a good photo a great time with family.

Like the previous eid-adhas we had, this year the family 'final homes' is the place we headed after the mosque. And later; mother, auntie & I had lunch together at Thien² in KK. Intended to bathe Fuchy but the car wash was only opened until 2pm. So I decided to kill the time at WM, wandered around .

Alhamdulillah, I have bought the gloves & socks I wish to buy ever since Lisa confirmed to me about our ladies trip; last week. Although Lisa told me I could get them at more cheaper price there, I still think I need to at least have 1 pair each with me during landed. Ndak pasal nanti aku jadi ice sculpture di sana. It's winter season & it's going to be my first winter so be please be kind with me.

Oh no, it's ain't drama because this fact is indeed true! Gue ANTI suhu sejuk! A temperature of 20 degrees is more than enough to freeze me! And please don't imagine what will I become when the temperature is below zero.

Anyways, last night we had dinner at Gayang Seafood somewhere near Sepanggar. Rugi gila sebab bateri hapei decided to die on me upon arrival at the said place. Ndak dapat aku bergambar sesakannya...bateri hanya mampu bertahan di depan tempat pilih bahan mentah jak. Erm, did I just say bahan mentah? Euw, sounded so cafe-ish. Shadap!

Went back home last night with happy tummy. Kenyang berabis; aku tidur dengan perut yang kejang. Ugh!! Debella sangat Bie oiiiiii. Lucky, I woke up early this morning due to the super churning stomach. Tanda masih berkesan penangan enzim Litchin sama sistem badan aku yang degil ni. Fine, tuan badan yang degil. Sekian.

Si Bunda & Her Only Sumandak

Cousins

Nota untuk diri: Bila pakai seluar Kembang Semangkuk, JANGAN over pose kaki senget nanti nampak macam patah!

I indeed made a top-drawer 2 relaxing leave days! Woooooooooooot!!

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Headache!

Things have been pretty rough with me since yesterday. Astaghfirullah. Migraine attack since yesterday morning seem to not wanting to slow down until now. I guess abruptly stopping the intake of caffeine shocked the system hence the extreme dizziness.

What happened last night worsen the throbbing head. Feel like it was being hit by lighting & gonna explode at any time. Eyeballs feel like popping out. Seriously, for a moment there...I can't feel the ground I'm standing upon. 

And to make things more dramatic, something came up soon as I reached the cafe this morning. I reeeeeally feel like crying my heart out. I don't think I can handle the things that came one after another. I seriously thought I am NOT capable to deal with too many problems in one time. 

But Alhamdulillah, came afternoon things slowly get better. Like magic. Thank You Allah. You have promised that You will never leave Your 'slaves' alone in every situation; especially on the rainy day(s). And never once had You break Your promises. Jika Allah mahu tolong, semua akan jadi sempurna kerana dia sebaik-baik Penolong & Pentadbir. Alhamdulillah.

Albeit that, head is still spinning. And getting heavier towards evening. I tried to put a healthy face; smile to the workers when suddenly one of them noticed my pale-ish face & asked me do I not feel well. sigh Is it too obvious when my system is not in the good condition. Phew...mau ndak mau, terpaksa telan sebiji pain killer tadi. Hampagas!

Tapi paling boleh makan kasut, dalam ndak sihat aku gagah bermukabuku. Juga ber-whatsapp. Sangat kehancuran. Choiii!

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Ombak Ke-Rinduan

1 Disember 2011 rasanya sangat jauh...aku belum nampak bayangnya lagi. Nafas turun naik menanti Abang Kesayangan berada di birai mata. Hmm, ada rasa ayat aku ni mau makan kasut ka? Ngek!

Novel ni aku baca zaman masih bergetah & vogue...gila bangga perut langsung tiada gumpalan lemak extra. Sekarang masih bergetah...tapi more to berkenduran gara² longgokkan lemak tepu & tidak tepu di setiap pelosok daging telah bermaharajalela ndak langsung kasi peluang sama muscle untuk develop. Ok ok, sila kembali ke motif asal entri ni wahai Bie oii. Cerita lemak sila simpan & hurai di lain masa.

Long story short, novel ni aku baca masa zaman high school. Memang aku hantu novel dari dulu. Cuma sekarang ni, aku macam ndak punya banyak masa mau jadi pembaca tegar macam dulu. I can finished 1 novel in just 3 days...dulu lah. Sekarang ni, maybe in 2-3 weeks baru lah khatam. Memang hampagas!

Apakah motif si Maya tu pakai FINK juga? Nasiblah anda cantik menawan paling kebabom...jadi aku pasrah membenarkan. Untuk Ombak Rindu, ndak apa. 

Inilah rupa novel nya. Untuk tatapan manusia² yang ndak tau or ingat² lupa rupa bentuk novel OR. Juga untuk tatapan manusia yang suka buat² tau semua benda tapi sebenarnya hampas.

Makaseh sama sang penulis untuk cerita superb nan hebat ni. Dari dulu kalau orang gebang pasal OR, aku automatically teringat warna cover buku ni. Purple adalah sweet! 

Ok mahu makan petang...sebelum program DeBella Litchin aku bermula esok. Gila azam ndak boleh blah!! Oh yeah, lancarkan program mahu buang excess lemak dalam badan. Mahu hidup sihat, bebas dari marung memanjang tanda depression. Keburukan!

Banyak baju jeans lingeries yang aku sudah lipat & susun di bahagian almari paling dalam. Insya Allah...ndak lama lagi tu boleh sudah dikasi keluar & dipergaya semula. Jangan jak aku berhangat sama taik ayam! Wachaaaa!!!

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Gonna Live it That Way

It's extremely weird. I noticed about this peculiar being as well. It has been like; months if I'm not mistaken. Might caused by the increase in age. Or may be due to hormone imbalance. Or mood swing. Yeah, blame them all!

I get easily offended these days. Even over some little & ridiculous reason(s), the sensitive side of me emerged out of a sudden. Lucky me for up to this moment, I managed to hide the side from revealing itself to the public. Whenever I feel offended, nothing could make me feel at ease. Hence I chose to treat my so-called wounded heart; all by myself. Without letting people close to me know about it. I always know I will be ok after taking some time off for myself. Because in time as such, all I ever wish for is some space & time. Solely dedicated for me to heal. 

Call me drama, call me melancholy, call me over sensitive; I am numb to those for I don't pay attention to any words uttered. In fact, I don't care any longer. I've tried my best but I guess I don't try harder. And I gave up too easily. I don't care...and I don't feel like I want to try any further. I had enough taking care of those insensitive souls. I had enough making sure they remain intact almost all the time...whilst mine; has been left abandoned for too long. I ain't blaming anyone because I know it's me who shall be blamed. I let people's thought(s) penetrate my mind, influence & in the end; took control to what I think what I want what I should do. 

Alhamdulillah. Albeit being worry with the way I see & feel things lately...I thanked Allah for leading me  to walk upon the right path. At least, I have come to my senses. Eventually. From now on, I will withdraw myself from any discussion(s) that I don't feel right or see the needs for me to speak up. And I hope my mind won't get messed up thinking about what others might think or say about me. I will only voice out my opinions & views when needed. And when I feel like not wanting to speak or talk, I will remain silent & I hope people around me get the message I tried to convey. 

I am letting bygones be the way they should be. Leave them behind; and never to be judged nor talked. There is absolutely nothing to say about them thus they are called the past. We are just human being after all. Humans have flaws...and weaknesses. And they are unique from each other. If I don't favour the presence of certain someone in my life...I'll just move to another page. Or cherish their presence until absence takes place. 

Life is short...I'll make it sweet for me. And to family & friends as well; as long as they permit me to do so.

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Tinta Rasa

Sungguh hati aku bingung
dengan perangai setengah orang
yang hanya mahu dijaga hatinya
dibaja disiram ditatang selagi masa berputar.

Sungguh aku tidak faham
mengapa wujud racun itu.

Sungguh aku pening
walau aku sudah tidak mahu masuk campur.

Sungguh aku mahu lari
dari semua yang bikin hati aku kacau.

Sungguh aku kasihan
pada jiwa yang hanya tahu memberi luka

Namun kasihan aku lagi berat
pada jiwa yang terluka
pada jiwa yang tidak mengerti
mengapa perlu dia dilukakan.
pada jiwa yang tidak tahu
hujung pangkal cerita duka.

Iya...yang dilukai itu bersalah
sudah banyak hati juga telah dia lukai.

Namun apa hak kau untuk
menghukum dia sebegitu hina

Jangan letak khilaf seorang manusia
dengan urusan Yang Maha Esa.

Jangan bandingkan.
Jangan pernah pertikaikan.

Jangan!
Kerana kalau Dia tarik
apa yang Dia pinjam pada kau
aku khuatir kau tidak akan mampu
menanggung derita itu.

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