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Few days back I stumbled upon my cousin’s status update in facebook. She said “Kurang sudah ensemboi sekarang”. In which ensemboi stands for handsome maybe good looking boy. I can’t recall the exact line but I am sure that’s her main point.

Teenagers. Macam aku dulu. Dapat yang muka handsome, harus bangga sikit. What’s more kalau sang cowok itu hit carta glamour di sekolah. Gila point bertambah²! Although some might say, rupa paras bukan ukuran. Yeah right. Tapi tipu kalau first impression ndak main peranan. Kau akan rasa bontot kembang lebey sikit saat terdengar bunyi² boyfriend kena puji, kan? And aku guarantee, bila kau introduce boyfriend muka nan ado to ur friends & they went like “Ohh so this is he” dengan muka langsung tiada sirna excited...sila potong semua jari jemari aku IF u say u did feel nothing. Numb as in unresponsive to the feedback. Biasalah, rasa tercabar & sedikit malu. I have to admit, I used to be in that phase before.

As the age increases or u could say as I get older...perception towards men change gradually. I don’t favour the idea “I feel bless & definitely the happiest lass in the world when I dated a handsome guy” any longer. My experiences have taught me more about life. I no longer see men the way I see them years back. In terms of perspective is what I meant.

Handsome good looking men will always attract any women attention. That I never will deny. But look alone ensure nothing to the future. Cuba try test bawa cowok ganteng loh ke mall...pilih² lah barang sebiji dua, later tayang muka cowok itu ke kaunter & brag to the cashier how ‘pretty’ ur boyfriend is. U really think u’re gonna walk out from mall holding the paper bags containing the things u picked earlier? Nah...angan mat jenin adalah kot.

Muka handsome is just a bonus. Duit banyak juga bonus. Semua berguna di dunia jak. Ndak boleh masuk kantung amalan untuk dihitung di akhirat sana. Aku ni bukan dalam kategori baik...jauh sekali mau hit level solehah. And tahu, wanita baik untuk lelaki yang baik.

Oh yeah, aku 'rindu' pasangan hidup yang baik. Mahu lelaki yang baik. And who doesn't? Mahu lelaki yang boleh bentuk aku jadi 'orang'. Yang mahu sama² bercinta kerana Dia. Yang mahu menuju & cinta Pencipta Pemberi Nikmat...instead of falling in love with the nikmat(s) given.

I read from a book I bought sometime ago...untuk dapat yang soleh, bersedialah jadi yang solehah. Sebabnya jelas...seperti aku, lelaki soleh mestilah mahu perempuan yang 'boleh dibuat life partner'. Yang memang ada ciri² tulang rusuk kiri yang hilang itu. Sibuk mencari yang soleh...sedangkan diri terumbang ambing having no intention to change & evolve. Haruslah hampas.

Awal Muharram is approaching soon. Like the previous years, I've set few resolutions for myself. It's more to personal aim & target actually. Tiada kaitan dengan azam ndak mau makan nasi setahun tu ya. Itu azam dunia semata². In the list, still ada few yang sangat jiwa kacau malas gaban untuk dilaksanakan. There's always obstacles & hurdles. Yes, alasan lagiii. Part paling best, keinginan tu kureng untuk tempuhi segala onak duri to achieve what I aim for. Sendiri punya salah ok.

Will try to work harder this time. Untuk tick list yang sudah dibuat. More efforts shall be made. Struggling for something worthwhile not only will make u proud of urself but it's one of the way to present to The Creator your appreciation for His Grace & Mercy. Insya Allah.

My all-time favorite song from Hijjaz.

Never will I be as remarkable a Sumayyah. But her determinations to uphold Islam could be of great example to me. Insya Allah.

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Sunset-ing

I've set a resolution early this year...that is to spend my Sunday to the utmost. Regardless what I do, as long as I get to go out from the house & breathe the fresh air outside.

It's also one of the best way to destress the mind after working not so hard on the weekdays. Yesterday, the weather was being nice to me. Although it drizzled on my way to the beach that evening...amazingly it only lasted for less than 15minutes. Alhamdulillah.

Had tea with cousins at Tg Aru 2^nd beach. Decided to catch the sunset before heading back home. Unless menses on cycle, I've set myself to be home right after dusk. Before dusk lagi bagus but normally memang tengah² Maghrib tu aku sampai rumah. Balik hujung² Maghrib...nanti mengangkut bersama si Laknat(s) pulang ke rumah.

Upon arrival. The cousins were there earlier than moi.

With Ari or was it Ade. Lantak pi, janji I was with 1 of the twins.

Twins paling jajal *nakal / naughty* dalam dunia. Comel jak pose aku, boleh pula mata kena cover. Hampas!

The twins' elder brother, Adam Isaac.

The not-a-child-anymore cousins, continued the evening at the 2^nd beach restaurant.

Clickaholics us. It's in the gene, so blame our parents.

Pokok kelapak.

Nia said this pic reminds her of Madagascar. Oh yeah, like u ever been there kan.

Main reason I love lepak-ing there; apart from the breathtaking view...is their cheeseburger. But lately rasa burger itu semakin nan ado. They USED to served super mouthwatering cheeseburger!! Kenapa harus berubah rasa? Bah, emo tetiba.

And later, the not so little bro & his little in size partner; joined us.

Bergerak pulang. Oh yeah, we do have gimbaran. Wakakakak.

I lurve this!!!! Subhanallah...

p/s Nabi SAW umpamakan perempuan ini seperti pokok semalu. Ia kuncup dengan sendirinya apabila senja menjelma. Maka itu bila waktu semakin senja, pulanglah ke rumah wahai para wanita.

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Wedding I attended

Sila jamu cuci mata with pics taken at my friend's wedding reception I attended just now. Sorry for the low quality outcomes ya. Terima seadanya hasil camera handphone.

cik Err & soon to be puan cik Heldah.

With the bride. *tension sendiri tengok gambar nan ado ini*

Below were taken from Grunge's compact camera. Thank goodness at least ada juga pictures with less noise & clear.

Nor & Mel; my coursemates & housemates/roomates back in UiTM.

Coursemates yang ex!

The ladies at the table.

With the newly weds. Congrats to dear Jury on the new title. Mrs sudah ooo.

I'm getting lazier to drag Blackie along to any events nowadays. Seriously Pinky has been resting for too long.

Ever since her charger went missing last year...she became an idle gadget & was kept in the drawer. Until recently, mother asked about my 26^th birthday gift from her. Harus wei rasa bersalah menikam jantung. Rabak seii. And since I've become more lazy bum to carry Blackie, I planned to get the charger by next year. Insya Allah. Bakal terbang lagi duit gue. Investment investment...for a bright clear non-blur pictures in the future. Punya lah PANDAN.

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Burps Banyak Kali

*clearing throat*

I seriously thought the soto I had for breakfast would be enough to withstand my appetence. At least until this evening. Because I have a wedding reception to attend at 7pm. The fact that it is held at a hotel made clear to me food served definitely will be immensely great with carbs & fats.

But the thought went straight to the drain upon seeing the box below. Sat next to the microwave...it's like the box was trying to tell me that the content needs to be heated prior consumption. And since I had just finished cleaning the house, I guess it's not a crime to just have a bite or two of it. Aha bite or two sangat.

Who can say NO to the content when the tummy has long rumbles. Rumble lah sangat cik Err.

There are only 2 slices...and another 1 in my hand.

Added with my favorita hot white coffee from Elken^R...it really is a bliss tea time for moi. What's more when it's pouring heavily outside. Boleh jak aku mengarang mimpi di dalam jaga. Ahaks.

Alkisah, ada penyesalan berdendang di jiwa. Kenapalah aku ikutkan hawa nafsu untuk menelan benda alah di atas. I ate all 3 slices, oh my! I should get a knife & slaughter myself. Since I've consumed more than I allow myself to...I should eat less at the reception then. Secubit rasa for each dish served. In order to compensate the fats I've swallowed just now. Memang saiko gabanlah. *sila tolong tension untuk aku...sambil tap my shoulder*

Will depart from my home with Memel at 5pm. Tumpang Nor's house for MagPra before heading to the hotel for the reception. Grunge & Rio will be there earlier hence I've told her to reserve seats for us. More photo sessions...I is like.

Ok now let's start fening with me...because I bloody don't have any suitable attire to wear! ugh ugh bakar almari lah macam ni bah.

Mari layan lagu untuk tenangkan jiwa. Ngeh~~

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Krok Krek

Reddish eyes. Burning tongue. Headache. Neck-pain. Sweating palms. All come visiting at once.

Few of the cousins have been visited by fever & flu since last week. Starting with Girl who passed the virus to her brother; Ezad. Later Baby drank from the same glass Ezad used & she got sick the day after. Both cousins were at my house the other day. I babysit Baby last Weds. Uly who sleeps in the same room as Baby, has started feeling unwell. She's sleeping on the couch in front of me right now.

I hope the fever will rest its case on visiting me today. Oh please do come on another day. Sunday sounds perfect. I have kenduri tahlil to go tonight...later to Laura's house for some retail therapy session. Yes, shopping comes to us. Bless isn't it. And I also have a wedding reception to attend tomorrow. So practically, I can't afford to get sick. Punya alasan mau hantuk ke dinding.

On Monday I have to meet my tailor wah tripping ada tailor sendiri for some alteration of my baju penyepit. Last time she measured me...I were still in a good shape. By the time she completed the baju, I have developed a few centimetres of extra fats here & there. Yes u got it right, I couldn't fit & hide the extra fats in the baju. A little bit of alteration at the zip & chest area will do I guess. Jangan jak aku nampak macam pregnant lady time wedding tu. Harus bunuh diri.

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