Ah'ha

cik Err sedang mengalami sakit kepala @ migrain tahap separa kronik. Choii kin panas mau diketuk...mentang² baru ni hari start puasa. I've been on vacation since last Weds. The first 2 days of Ramadhan I was on holiday too. And that means I have 10 days to qada'. Woot woot pesta ganti puasa bakal bermula.

Was in a meeting with the Student Affair personnels early this morning. Alkisah kunun to discuss the pending claim. And sekali diselit agenda utama penting as well...jeng jeng jeng. Ndak boleh reveal to public sebab benda tu classified as internal matter. Kena jaga periuk & nasi sesama kami. Wah penyepak mau ka, cik Err? Kepoyoan terserlah di situ.

Puasa hari ni buat aku lemau. Lemah ndak bermaya. Macam taik kucing minta puji aku tu. System is in the midst of detoxification. I've eventually lessen the amount of coffee I take daily. Hence the to & fro visit to the loo & constant nausea.

Low consumption of plain water might also be the cause for the headache; so I guess. Because insufficient amount of O₂ in the brain is also one of the reason of the frequent migraine attack. Mengapakah masih degil juga mengada mau pingsan? But hello, who said I don't take any drink other than coffee? Aku minum air berwarna sahaja...sirap bandung *slurp* is the best contoh. And please don't tell me sirap bukan kategori air? Haiya...

*mode: in denial*

Tapi chup...aku rasa sebab musabab pening ni gara² bau kaki super kick orang yang duduk sebelah aku during the meeting just now. Ok that might not be the main source but I am 101% sure, that foot odor was one of the factor that trigger the headache. Unpleasant smell distracted the brain activity, BIG TIME. It seems to dysfunction & it couldn't translate some of the things that happened around me, appropriately. Adui berdrama!

Oklah...enough with migraine, plain water, FO & whatnot. Sila abaikan sebentar kisah penyakitan tu ya. Let's change the topic.

This year, I will be out of KK town on the 2^nd till 3^rd raya. 'Bercuti Raya' with the PPGs & Posers...as what I like to name the so-called getaway. Akan menjadi sipi² busy this coming Syawal for I will be attending friends' weddings. So far there'll be 4 weddings untuk menayang muka. More gathering means more photo sessions; and we heart the word PHOTO SHOOT! Undoubtedly.

The bffs requested for a raya dinner at my house. I've put the request under the "I will think about it later" list. I'm not sure whether to proceed or to decline as yet. Nanti gue pikirin...bila so called fening ni subside. Insya Allah.

Pain vanishes our venial sins...so what's with the whining about being in pain miss Err?

Penghutang!

Sedang menghitung hutang yang perlu dilangsaikan once the Ramadhan ended. Aku lah penghutang yang paling berjaya saat ini. 8 days has it been. Hopefully tomorrow I will be able to fast. Macam lain jak rasa diri bila semua puasa, yang aku bersukaan malar makan.

Do I need to gripe about the menses that seem so stubborn to stop its cycle? Hmm itu boleh dikategori kufur. 2 makhluk mulia kiri & kanan aku ni punya buku that record every single words that slipped out of my mouth. They would NEVER missed jotting down every details; precisely & accurately.

Laura & Grunge crashed my calm crib last night. And my, they wrecked hard. Ndak pernah tu rumah gitu bising...aku juga yang maitain ayu bersuara perlahan. U sure wanna buy what I said, no? I'm telling the truth here...ain't exaggerating anything.

Because they craved for hamcoi ayam...I had to fulfil their request. I made *totally tasteless* ikan merah asam pedas as well . Hamcoi didn't taste like it used to because I got them not at the grocery shop I normally buy. Tapi tu 2 orang kebulur masih cakap sedap...betul² lidah buaya kan. Grunge claimed she fast the whole day just to stuff her tummy with my cooking. Alkisah, semua bakal suffer diarrhoea.

She seems so dedicated explaining & sharing the info about RO with mother...but was pretty alert when Grunge wanted to take a candid pic of her. Flash is the kinda distraction the PPGs would pay no mind to. Vain us!

While the chief played her role...1 of the 'vain' member hijacked my phone & snap her pics like nobody business. Bukti dia clickaholic tahap paling pure.

This evening akan bersihkan diri supaya esok dapat berpuasa dengan jayanya. Insya Allah. Janganlah ada kesan degil yang suddenly muncul.

p/s Mel, next time they told u about makan² at my place, u have to get ready. Body & soul cause they ain't joking girl!

Hujan rahmat di luar...sungguh aku chenta akan bau air yang jatuh menyembah bumi.

Kerna kau, Chenta

Alhamdulillah. Syukran ya Allah for this feeling, for Your Blessing.

Sila lah dengar wahai seantero dunia. Wah gitu.

Aku adalah dalam mode happy berabisan. Like I said before, one could intrigue me even with the simplest thing. It's not hard to please me & it's so easy to make me laugh my lung out loud. Because I super love expressing my joy to the world.

Chenta Hati, u blew my topsy-turvyness away. U've made my Weds extra incredible. And for that, I thank u from the bottom of my heart. U have never failed to amuse me with ur surprises. Chenta banget ama kamu dong.

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Kadang tak mengerti apa yang kau mahu

Kadang ada cinta kadang ada benci

Andai aku dapat melihat isi hatimu

Kan ku sahut jawapannya

Malam yang berbintang kan menjadi saksi

sering kau tinggalkan aku sendiri

Tapi ku tak bisa meninggalkan dirimu

Kerna ku chenta kepadamu

Sepertinya aku...tak mampu memilih

Kerna aku masih menchentai dirimu

oh sayangku...

Mungkinkah dirimu...seperti dahulu

Cintaiku sepenuh hatimu

Tak tahu...

Ku tak tahu...

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Biar aku tidak mengerti, namun aku yakin dengan Ketentuan Nya.

Buzzzz

Let's start with sesi ngedate-cum-iftar ama temen² YS last Mon. Buang tabiat berslang Indon hancur di situ. Only part of the 'members' joined the session as most of them weren't free. Terikat dengan urusan kerja; tersebut kisah.

Ahli majlis...ndak cukup forum. Tetap bising, nonetheless. Kizzy & Daia; we miss u ladies. Ernie & Pijut; sila bersabar. Ngeh~

Didn't take much pics though. We were too occupied with updates & stories also gossips session. Too carried away I nearly forgot my promise to visit Aniki before 9pm.

Aniki with yours truly. As commanded required, his face harus disorok. Sekian.

Alhamdulillah...I managed to keep my promise. Membawa ahli majlis ambushed rumah IjaLyn. Finiey whom is 6 months preggy; share hal² pregnancy & delivery with Lyn. While us yang bujang mujang share aura girigitan sama Aniki. Only Ell & I have the gut to hold Aniki though. Yam & Zai haven't 'earn' the courage yet. Time will tell...kunun kau di sana cik Err.

Yesterday, departed from home sweet home early in the morning. First destination was Kepayan. Pigi membayar kerusi rotan mother booked last Sun. And that soon will replace the rotten decaying sofa at home. The children is the main reason on why we need to buy a new sofa this year. It's NOT exactly sofa raya for us...it just happened that we purchased it near raya. Alang² la mau menukar...biar tukar time ni. Merasa kunun sofa nan keras baru. Choi!

1 Borneo was the next stop. Spent hours there. And sangat happy for I finally got to buy new bedsheets & curtains for my room! Ni tahun kunun ikut tema warna bilik. Bamboo-green & fuchsia-pink. Semangat mau raya padahal puasa ndak penuh. Kin panas!

Watched Grown Ups with mother. I recommended this movie. Manatau kau sedang stress, sedang alami bad-hair day, sedang dalam fasa meroyan, sedang perlu mahu ketawa untuk jadi sewel...cerita ni memang stok untuk memburai perut. Family oriented lagi. Memang best. Aku ketawa macam orang separa gila sedar.

And we wrapped our Merdeka holiday by having iftar at Olde Kopitiam, City Mall. Our iftar la sangat padahal aku ni masih bercutian. Super delicious ice tea they serve akan ku kenang sampai akhir hayat. Yes, I heard u. Melancholy moi! So sorry I just can't help it. Tried getting rid of it many times before, but to no avail. Erm poyo gaban mau mati.

At around 930pm, Laura fetched Grunge & I up. Headed to Yoyo Lintas, lepak² catching up things. Dapat new Singapore dress from Laura as well. And it's PINK! Oh I so know I love my ladies for something. Tetttt! Silap ayat tu kan.

The PPGs will be having dinner at my house tonight. Laura's going to 'brainwash' mother about the RO water filter. As for the rest, harus jadi sang penyibuk pok silap mau makan hamcoi. Malas² aku serve pudding jak nanti tu. Mogot poh pudding...ontok di aiso, kon? Erk...the vicious side of me has emerged, eventually!

Starting from the moment I reached cafe this morning, I've been going in & out the loo for like more than 10times already. Bersyukurla, dari ditarik nikmat aku buang air kecil. Kepenatan berulang alik but still...better than not being able to pee at all. Lagi haru biru.

p/s Awal pagi mood naik tahap membimbangkan...craving for Big Apple alkisahnya.

Perbualan yang di-retyped

Alkisah few days back, I chatted with one of my suam² kuku close friend. Butir perbualan mula² tu macam biasa...kira intro lah kali. Sekali masuk bab isi penting, baru aku tahu sebab musabab si kawan tu beria bawa chat.

Initially I thought to just copy & paste everything we talked...but before we ended the session, that friend gave me a hint that literally means 'Please don't simply paste & post details of this conversation'; to me.

Being pembaris that I seldom chose to be...I agreed to not posting. Well, part of it will be readable to public. The rest will remain P&C. But the PPGs excluded; it's a crime to hide from them.

So here goes the curhat session between that friend (K) & I (B). I decided to retyped them. Ubah bahasa pasar yang mungkin susah mau difahami. Banyak yang harus dicensored...karang meletup lagi bom² gas panas hati. Jiwa!

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K: Memang dia terasa sama kau sebab cara kau blog tu macam perli diorang.

B: Apa pula perli. Bah siapa makan cili, maka memang rasa pedas. But honestly, that post bukan untuk diorang. Like I said, its dedicated to ALL. Diri aku pun sama.

K: Ya I know but....susah bah Err mau cakap.

B: Susah apa. Ni lah manusia, suka perasan dikasi salah. Hello! Ndak kan mau dengar aku ni bercakap yang best jak. Memujiiiiiiiiiii jak. Kebenaran macam mana pahit, kena telan juga bah.

K: Jangan marah aku lah. Jujur bah, siapa juga kau cakap tu.

B: Hmm...kalau ikut betul, memang aku dedicate tu untuk dibaca oleh orang. Bukan seseorang lagi, tapi ramai. Jujur? Actually tu untuk sedarah sedaging aku. Sebab lagi aku mau diorang baca tu.

K: Bagus kau jangan pos entri gitu lagi. Nanti ada orang sakit hati baca. Terasa. Dibenci lagi kau.

B: Tulah manusia, bila dipuji jadi riak. Bila ditegur benda betul, jadi taik. Ndak da juga aku jemput diorang tu lawat blog aku. Ndak suka, dipersila keluar. Mau kah aku halau secara rasmi? Peduli sakit hati...hati orang kau ingat semua dapat dijaga ka? Benci? Macam ndak pernah aku makan benda tu semua. Lali sudah lor!

K: Jangan memanas kau sama aku bah.

B: Bukan lah panas. Aku geram jak. Benci jak bah. Aku ndak heran juga. Aku tahu aku ni pun ndak da hak mau menegur or cakap gitu tapi ingat mengingat tu kan baik. Aku lagi risau kalau Di Atas tu murka & benci. Biarlah berlautan benci orang sama aku...mati nanti, hilang juga semua tu. Ndak da sudah guna² dia.

K: Kau ni cakap lagi gitu. Diam jak lah pasni Err. Kalau kau ndak suka, simpan sendiri jak.

B: Aik suka aku lah. Apa aku tulis dalam blog tu hak aku. Aku ndak taruk nama sepa²...jadi relaks jak bah. Dari aku maki hamun bagus aku curah dalam blog.

K: Bukan apa...

B: Sudah lah. Aku malas mau debat ni. Terlampau ramai sudah suka makan cili. Sudah kepedasan, blame orang lain kunun menyuruh makan. Yalah aku mind my own business pasni. Jangan jak nanti aku tulis entry for myself, ada lagi orang ingat aku cakap pasal dia.

K: Macam aku cakap...susah bah kalau barang sensitif gitu.

B: Bukan susah, tapi ada orang makin besar makin bongok. No worries pasni aku ukur kain di badan sendiri, tapi jangan sampai pinjam kain aku nanti. Kau sudah beli baju raya? Aku ndak da ni kain lebih. :)

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Conversation over that so-called sensitive thing ended right after I swifted to another topic. Aku adalah kemalasan bercakap pasal benda yang sayur pahit macam tu.

From what I've learned before...when things turn out the way u don't favor them to be, sometimes walking away from them is the greatest solution ever. Manusia ni macam ragam, memang mustahil dapat berfikir satu hala jak. Without having to contradict with others.

Juga aku belajar...kalau orang gila dilayan lebih², nanti kita akan jadi lagi gila dari dia. Ermm K, aku bukan cakap kau ni ah. Jadi sila jangan perasan, unless kau memang gila. Yang tu aku ndak campur lah. Memang banyak lagi fikiran orang kita belum merdeka...

Manusia memang suka dengan keindahan, tapi sila jangan lupa keburukan itu pun ada seribu kecantikkan tersembunyi.