Maaf aku tidak sempurna

Aku dikata tidak baik

kerana aku menjadi aku

Aku dikata tidak baik

kerana ingin ku tegak

benang yang kering

Aku dikata tidak baik

kerana semua kelilingku

tidak suka sesuatu

yang drastik

Aku dikata tidak baik

kerana ku kerat talian

yang bagiku tiada berbuah

Aku dikata tidak baik

kerana jalan ku cara ku

tidak sealun mereka

Aku dikata tidak baik

kerana cuba untuk

jadi yang bukan selalu

Aku dikata tidak baik

kerana arus moden

bukan teras diri

Aku dikata tidak baik

kerana luahanku

dikata menikam hati

yang merasa pedas

cili ilusi

Aku dikata tidak baik

kerana punya 'suara'

berbeza

Aku dikata tidak baik

kerana mereka rasa

layak berkata

...kerana mereka itu punya hati

umpama kristal;

telus & jujur.

...kerana mereka itu pasti

yang tidak sehala

yang berbeza

bukan dari golongan baik.

~miss err~

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Reminder

Peringatan untuk diri sendiri...kalau boleh aku rotan diri sendiri, harus aku rotan.

Kenapalah engkau malas sembahyang?

Allah beri engkau jasad lengkap dengan bayang-bayang,

Tidakkah lebih beruntung daripada tiang,

Berdiri roh malam dan siang?

Kenapalah engkau malas sembahyang?

Hendak makan minum pun dah senang,

Negara aman bukan perlu berperang,

Lima minit untuk lima waktu pun tak boleh luang.

Kenapalah engkau malas sembahyang?

Allah beri akal supaya engkau berbeza dengan binatang,

Allah beri ilmu boleh berfikir susah dan senang,

Allah beri banyak nikmat kenapa tidak dikenang?

Kenapalah engkau malas sembahyang?

Keluar lepak sanggup sampai ke petang,

Beli tiket konsert sanggup beratur panjang,

Engkau ingat boleh masuk syurga dengan senang?

Kenapalah engkau malas sembahyang?

Ingatlah umur kau bukannya panjang,

Pagi kita sihat, petang boleh kaku kejang,

Dalam kubur nanti jawablah seorang.

Kenapalah engkau malas sembahyang?

Siksa neraka cubalah dibayang,

Masa di akhirat terlalu panjang,

Janji Allah pasti datang tidak terhalang.

Hasil: iluvislam.com (Rasailul Ashwaq)

Jangan simpan sikap malas tu

Jangan sampai orang datang rumah...sembahyangkan kau

baru sana kau huru hara menyesal, Bie.

Aktibiti

Inhale exhale inhale exhale. TVD has come back ya'll! OH YEAH! All hail to Vampire Diaries Season 2.

It was aired last night & I tried to download it right after the show ended. Unfortunately, the downloadable link wasn't available as yet. Well...not until this evening. Oh yeah, let's tango everybody. 2 hours to go before the download completes. I is so can't wait to see the faces I lurve seeing. I hope Stefan gains some weight...and Bonnie too. And I hope Damon has polished his sense of humor more. U have no idea how much I miss his banters & silly words.

The perfect couple in the human-vampire world.

Because I didn't get to meet the Pevensie's last night, I'll be going tonight with mother & cousins. Hopefully there's still tickets for us. Else, aku nangis darah lagi. So desperate to meet Prince Caspian again. It's been nearly a year since I last saw him. From the trailer, I could tell he has grown into a fine hunk. Oh so impossible not to admire him.

I miss Aslan; The King of Narnia as well. I always find Aslan is somehow macho in his own way.

*clearing throat* As written on the pic above...presenting the prince!

Caspian @ Ben Barnes was also the Young Dunstan in Stardust. As for now, he is 1 of the very rare cute man I've ever 'seen' my entire life.

By the time I got home after Narnia-ing...TVD has complete its download. Harus sambung movie session wei. Tomorrow kan holiday suka hati; gotta be wise in spending time. It's not like everyday I get leave on SabtuDay. Yay.

p/s: Chenta Hati, sehandsome mana Stefan...sepedas mana kata² Damon...segagah mana Prince Caspian; lor itu tetap pujaan #1 gue dong. Jangan bimbang ya. Chenta gue untuk loh, lekat kukuh di hati. Insya Allah dengan izin Nya, nggak kan berkurang. Ngeh~~

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hugs*kisses

Aslan-ing Dicancel

First & foremost!

Gila sedih frust tertonggeng nangis darah! Date with Pevensie's siblings tonight has to be postpone. Full house for the 9pm show; both Suria & CP cinemas. Only goat class seat available in which is a big NO-NO for me. I am devastated to the very core! Have promised Edmond & Lucy earlier; that is to join them in the quest rescuing the 7 lost lords of Narnia. Mission to save Narnia would be of late for I can only join them tomorrow. Oh my, I miss Aslan so very much. And Prince Caspian as well. Start lagak gedik. This is gonna be their last time ever of visiting Narnia...and seeing Aslan for sure. I could sense, another sad ending of a story after Dobby's death will the movie be. sigh.

Ok, on another note. I'm slowly getting my pink health back. Alhamdulillah. The purplish tablets mother forced me to swallow last night did magic to my aching tooth. Not that it has heal completely...but at least, the pain lessen. No more throbbing headache. Only the swollen gum & muscle-ache. I still can't chew my food. Hence I'll have to be extra careful on what food to enjoyed next time. Porridge definitely won't be in the menu. So I guess, jelly & soup will do.

Despite being unwell, I still go to the office to settle some work. Need to get everything ready for the payday tomorrow. And more good news, I'm uber grateful upon knowing there is finally; a progress on my claim with the uni. Dapatlah gue bercuti dengan dada lapang next week. Alhamdulillah.

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hugs*kisses

Hello December

Officially down with fever. I had to force myself to get up because I couldn't stand the heat produced by the body by cocooning myself under the duvet. It makes me sicker...nobody layan me when I'm sick because I enjoyed being extra cranky & fussy. Yang macam mau makan penampar. Super annoying. I tend to increase my DQ being when I get sick. Ahaks.

Started with toothache since last night. And yeah, neither plan A nor B were executed. Energy was fully deteriorating. Lied on bed after MagPra...took a short nap to recharge myself. Woke up few hours later with tummy dangdut-ing. And since I've restricted any carbs & fats to enter the system last night, I opted for salad instead. Did the dressing myself & shared half the portion with mother. I was pretty sure I was recovering because I woke up this morning; feeling afresh albeit a bit dizzy. The tooth still ache & the right cheek started to bulge.

Because I have things to settle regarding work, I tried my best to ignore the unwell body. Pulled a happy healthy face. Drove to and fro UMS-KK; hiding the achy muscles, aching tooth & explosive head in my magic Doraemon's pouch. Had luncheon date with beloved sisters; Laura & Grunge. Fyi ladies, I didn't chewed my fried meehoon. Because I can't stand the throbbing pain in my gum, I just swallowed them up. Wasn't it the cutest thing?

Promised Maya to watch Rapunzel together tonight. But I have to blow it off. I is feeling uber guilty for breaking the promise. Don't wanna get iller by getting out at night hence I had to cancel. Only Maya, mommy & daddy go. Sob sob sob...I'm showing very bad example to that little missy. Gonna make it up with her once I'm 'normal' & back to kicking the floor.

Am all alone at home right now. Can't do anything heavy. Sila muntah darah sekalian alam. I refuse to lie on the bed anymore; head gets dizzier. And the toothache didn't get any better either. Wearing my favorite mud-green sweater & bro's black socks...I decided to go online & update the blog. Regardless the wooziness.

Checked the mailbox upon arriving home this evening, and found a white envelope with my name written on it. I seriously thought it was the appreciation letter/card from MAKNA send to me monthly. Hated myself for being such a non-sensitive friend...turned out it's a wedding invitation from dear Dot. The reason why I'm flying to Kolumpur next month. The wedding in which I'll be one of her gorgeous bridesmaids.

Front cover.

Invitation for the reception.

Special invitation for the solemnization at her house. I'm gonna drive all the way to Rawang on the said date; dragging along cousin sister Ezza. Harus bawa PA sign mati.

Can't wait for the wedding. Jadi emo sikit upon reading the card's content. I text her to inform that I've received the card & she called straight away. As always, we talked like there's no tomorrow. Nasib lah battery kong. Oh I miss those times I spent with her, Ruby & Tihah at our rented house in Pantai Dalam. 13 more days to go before hitting the Peninsular land. Initial plan to go hu-ha with Laura in Kolumpur was cancelled this afternoon. She'll be there a day earlier than me...and back to KK 3 days after. Which mean, schedule kami clash. I'm driving straight to Penang few hours after arriving Sepang. Berjimba di sana bersama sepupu sepapat. Tambun's holiday hanya anganan, hampas betul si Ezza tukar venue tetiba.

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