Working Sat for moi.

It's raining cats & dogs since yesterday. Ohh ada pula Miss Sunshine emitted some lights early this morning. I really thought it's going to be a sunny Saturday just now.

But it started drizzling upon reaching workplace...and that proved me wrong about the sunny thingy.

We'll be having short briefing with the staffs this evening.

Later, akan invade Warisan with cousin sister; Nia. Harus beli apa sudah berkurun dihajatkan. Nanti mimpi ngeri selagi niat ndak tertunai.

Fab Friday for me..blessed as well.

Drizzles greet me early this morning. And rain started pouring on my way to workplace. Alhamdulillah...the weather has been extremely hot since Monday. Can't bear with the cracking heat sometime; head feels like spinning.

Life is sailing, albeit a bit slow; to a better course. Alhamdulillah. I shall be walking away from the impasse road soon. I'm gonna bid jiwa batu mode; a goodbye too.

Right now adalah mau lari dari drag diri ke lembah bahaya. Damn it. Aku mau ketawa besar. Why oh why thing like this could occurred now. NO I won't start asking myself with the what ifs Qs anymore. What happened, has happened. I do not need to dwell into the past. Even dapat balik & given the oppurtunity to change the course; I won't change a thing. Ever. Not even a tiny bit of it.

Untuk yang empunya body;

MAAF deh loh...udah kelewatan dong. Gue nggak interested untuk mau tahu yang lanjut lagi. Gue ini nggak punya apa², juga nggak ada yang speselnya kan? Bukan gitu yang loh omong ke gue dulu? Letak tepi jalan juga nggak ada yang sudi kutip. Jadi apa-an si loh nggak putus kejarin & susahkan hidup gue sampai saat ini? Udah² lah...cari aja yang kaya raya, yang harga dirinya tinggi; yang pasti itu bukan gue. Gue cadangi, loh pikiran aja hal orang lain selepas ini ya. Titik.

Hmm tukar topic; sekian.

I hit the sack pretty early this evening...down to dreamland after Maghrib prayer. And woke up 4 hours later. Dengar bunyi drum & gitar dalam perut...then macam ada konsert pula. Alkisah; perut adalah kosong. Gue laper. Had laksa for breakfast, choc waffle for lunch...and now I'm in the midst of enjoying my supper; 2 pieces of pizza + hot nescafe. So much of a healthy diet huh.

Will be sailing back to dreamland in a bit...mau kasi turun dulu ni makanan.

*sigh*

what's with the sudden sighing? Phew...I've been generally incompetent these past few days. I fumbled almost everything.

Still I haven't found the reasons that lie beneath these awkwardness.

Jiwa ndak kacau juga tapi rasa ada lohong. Kenapa ahh suddenly ada rasa pelik macam ni.

The feeling I've been having lately make things more complicated. Yes peeps, I rarified simple things because I love dragging myself into the melodramatic phase.

The jigsaw puzzle symbolize my heart. 1 piece went missing when u're not around me. Hence, the incompleteness.

I know exactly; missing u is not the main reason for this uncertainty feeling. My mood fluctuates every 5 minutes...that is enough reason to say u're not the one who pulled the trigger.

I wish u were here with me...and I pray I will pass this through soon-ish.

Cepatlah petang menjelma...sangat ndak selesa sudah duduk di ofis bersama jiwa nan keliru ini. Alangkah gumbira hati kalau dapat balik & tidur.

OMG...I've been trying to cease this voice in the mind; also these feeling.

Truth is; while trying to cease the voice I secretly tell the heart to not stop having those feeling. Bummer! Bisa pecah jantung kalau terusan gini tau.

I have a confession to make here...that is;

I BLOODY MISS U; MY OTHER HALF. I WISH I COULD FLY RIGHT NOW & BE BY UR SIDE.

Ok NOT right now as it's night already. Nanti ada kuntilanak bubut aku; lain kalau si Edward. Tapi kalau Edward muncul, nah kelupaan pula aku mau continue terbang pi tempat mu. Aishh payah kan. Jadi aku tukar ayat ah Honey.

I BLOODY MISS U; MY OTHER HALF. I WISH I COULD FLY & BE BY UR SIDE. Kalau dapat 1st flight bisuk lagi best kan.

Psst...harus buat something to keep the mind busy. Coba untuk membawa tidur tapi kesusahan melanda. Boleh² aku dengar suara dia. Memang sah mabuk taik ayam ndak hengat dunia.

Ya Allah...lindungi aku.

Phew it's Wednesday already...how time flies these days. Even if it's December now, I will not be shock anymore.

I feel like something is wrong with me lately. Ever heard of the word buang tabiat? That's pretty much alike of what I feel at this very moment.

Aku rasa geram almost all the time. Geram not as in holding the anger or waiting to burst out. It's like there's something in my heart suffocates me. And what make it worst is the fact that I bloody not know the reason towards this peculiar feeling. Choiii..!

There are times I feel like crying my heart out loud. There are times I feel like screaming. And I feel sleepy everytime I came into the office. Mata adalah berat tapi harus ndak kan dapat tidur. Bahu belah kanan started to swollen up...I couldn't bear the pain sometimes.

Is it possible to take off my neck; untangle the disorganize nerves & later put it on. Ughh I wish. Sudahlah migraine makin menjadi². I think I need to pay a visit to the optical shop very soon-ish. Rasa power lens sudah naik...hence the frequent headache. Harus mata pun sakit sekali...feels like it's going to pop out anytime.

This time I might be wearing those color lens like I did few years back. Mau jadi orang putih sesat...yang kelebihan carbon di kulit. But will only put them on when I'm not working. Gila di cafe pun mau bermata grey...tawar terus rasa sup soto tu karang.

Speaking of soto...baru ingat aku order waffle pula tadi. Ok lah, gotta get moving. Mau mencekik al-waffle sebentar.