Last night plan untuk tinguk The Expandable adalah ke laut. After iftar, perut kembung tahap gaban. Mau jalan pun ndak dapat...rasa mau mengensot jak macam ular, boleh? Juadah iftar hanya makanan take away dari cafe...except spaghetti goreng & nasi putih. Yup, it's the 2^nd time I made spaghetti goreng...perut aku rasa mau makan benda alah tu so ndak salah kan tunaikan request sang tummy.

After habis segala urusan...tiba² kemalasan membuak datang. Tanda supaya aku stay jak lah di rumah. Bulan puasa lebih molek lekat di rumah...bukan berpeleseran meninguk wayang segala ya cik Err. I decided to just hook myself in front of Asus instead.

Gobek² youtube.com, sekali suddenly it crossed my mind to search for Maher Zain. Good friend of mine, Ruby; gave me the link to 1 of his song some time ago...but being the occasionally tone-deaf me, I just listened to the song ONCE. Ruby ada buat brief description about the singer tapi aku biasa lah...cinta banget sama label outdated tu. Orang sudah berkurun dengar & hayati lirik MZ's songs...aku baru semalam sibuk mencari.

Being the typical me kalau sudah suka certain song...harus kau akan muntah darah dengar aku putar lagu tu berjuta kali. I can listen to that song alone the whole day. Semalam, Maher Zain single "For the Rest of My Life" caught my attention. Berdrama sendiri depan Asus...tears falling endlessly I couldn't make them stop. Masya Allah, lirik adalah menusuk kalbu. Chenta Hati, go read the lyric. Nanti sila dedicate sama aku, ya.

Sudah habis dengar lagu mamat handsome tu...datang pula urge untuk cari ceramah Ustaz Kazim Elias. Hari tu di mukabuku ada dengar 1 of his ceramah titled; Bergembiralah Wahai Wanita. Sekerat jak; pasal tu aku gagau mencari sambungannya. Best & penuh pengajaran sebab dalam ustaz tu berdakwah...beliau guna bahasa seharian kita. For me, lebih mesra & senang masuk akal aku yang nan tepu ni. And beliau giler pandai buat lawak. Jadinya, ndak lah mengantuk di situ. Aku biasalah kalau dengar ceramah apalagi ceramah agama...harus mata pun berat macam ada bertan bata bergantung di bulu mata.

But this ustaz...succeeded in making me stay to listen to his ceramah for nearly 3 hours. 2 ceramah aku berjaya dengar sampai habis; Tipu Daya Dunia & Warna Hati Remaja. Alhamdulillah. In Tipu Daya Dunia, memang gila banyak terkena batang hidung. Kalau lah tiap bait ayat ustaz tu ibarat rotan...nah patah sudah batang hidung aku dipukul. Tambah penyet la hidung yang memang ndak mancung.

Dek kerana kesyiokan, therefore I wish to listen more of his ceramah tonight. Insya Allah akan download dalam handphone & boleh dengar while driving. Biar telinga ni jadi bersih dengar benda baik². I have already list down few titles I will listen later. 1 of them is Harta Yang Tidak Pernah Puas. And I would also want to download Allahyarham Ustaz Ismail Kamus' ceramah titled; Wajah-wajah Mayat. Used to listen to his ceramah before...pastu stop sebab decide untuk jadi bangang sibukkan diri dengan urusan dunia.

Kerugian itu suatu pilihan...terang lagi bersuluh, kau pilih jalan yang gelap itu cik Err. Sila berpatah balik before it's too late.

Good deeds are pay cash these days

Went to Perodua* Service Centre early in the morning. And this time, it's Kens' water pump stop functioning. Oh boy I'm getting exhausted with the non-stop errors with her system. It's endless...one coming after another. So much of rough-and-tumble to maintain her. Let alone the effort needed in order to stay loyal with the local product. Hampas.

Frustrated & disappointed; that I hope could conclude what I feel right now. Enough said.

I hope she'll be release from the 'clinic' by today. Makin selalu hantar, makin banyak faulty minah tu. Perhaps, Perodua* doesn't really comply the right procedure in recruiting their technician/mechanic. Pakai taram orang bilang. Tu lah buat kerja pun semborono. Ntah lah. And although I don't fancy the brand any more, nonetheless I hope Fuchy won't turn like Kens. If thing turns out the same...potong jari lah lepas tu I''ll just sell Fuchy off & buy the non-local product. Nevermind the cost for it's worth it. Yoh lah macam bertimbun kan duit kau cik Err.

On another note, a friend from high school called just now. Inviting me to our yearly pot luck iftar at her house...and like the many previous years, I WILL NOT BE ABLE TO JOIN. Sudah tahu aku jauh nun di sini...sanggup call. Paling haru dia siap cakap; who knows miracle happens & suddenly aku sudah di Kolumpur. Ugh bengkek, tau tak Fafana?? I hate it when she enjoyed exaggerating the things they'll gonna do. Which I've missed too many. It's been years since I last joined them. Rindu serindu rindunya...*nangis air mata pink lepas ni* Sila tahu, aku sedih though I know topics nanti memang dari dulu itu je. The same old stories unquestionably will invite ketawa nan besar minah² ex Projek tu.

Anyway, good karma embrace one soul if good deed done in this holy month & vice versa. Allah the Almighty pays cash these days. Alkisah, I found an expensive Sony mobile at the cafe last Sat. And I kept the phone at the office...hoping the owner will call. Which this morning, she did. She came straight away to the office after she hung up...with swollen & reddish eyes. I bet she had just realized her phone was missing...and went madly cried over it. After berterima kasih segala...dia pun keluar.

Not long after, she came back & handed me something. *refer to below image* Woohaa...baru jak mention mocha blended to Bungsu last Sat. And today I got the voucher. Harus bersyukur wei! Rezeki di pagi hari Isnin...1^st day in the 3^rd week of Aug. Syukran.

Later tonight after T, I'm going to drag mother to 1B. Wanna watch The Expandables...sekali menebus voucher di atas. Harus cepat!

How time flies! Last year on this very day, I was at Jesselton Point with Mel, Grunge & Rio. Savoring the oh so delicious lamb chop at my favorite cafe there. It was also our first time meeting Grunge's cinta hati. Rio was still in the process to understand our one of a kind attitudes at that time.

Sayur pahit-ed us

Never been close with Grunge during diploma but we cliqued instantly the 1st time we hang out together.

The only man on that night...Grunge introducing the senior members of PPGs to Rio.

And today on the same date but different year, I spent the evening with part of the family. We had iftar at Getaran Jiwa, Alamesra. I don't wanna spill about their food & the price because I might sound ungrateful if I started talking about it.

With cousins, mother & Bungsu at Alamesra. Break fast.

Harus elak whining pasal rezeki di bulan puasa. Cukuplah ngomel sendiri² dalam hati. Oh I did slipped out something accidentally though..."Ee ni makanan dot dot dot". Luckily cepat sedar & istighfar. Mau mengeluh lebih² macam tongol jak...ramai lagi orang di ceruk² dunia yang kebuluran. Ntah ada makan ka ndak. Ntah ada masa fikir pasal makan or ndak. Ugh.

Sahur...si ibu akan join. Alhamdulillah ndak lah aku lone ranger lagi. Hmm berfikir menu sudah ni. Maggi Laksa sounds sedap pula. *slurp*

To my beautiful ladies...Aida Rahman & Tihah Mohamed. I send to u warm wishes...pray that ur day filled with blessings, love, joy & peace. Amin.

*Ucapan Khas: Sila tambah anak di tahun depan...ahaks*

Nothing much happened today...nothing to share. I missed my sahur AGAIN...did switched on the alarm but the buzz became a lullaby for me lah pula. Bongos sayur pahit.

No sahur doesn't mean I will skip fasting. I just don't get it...one doesn't fast & started giving ridiculous excuses when being asked; why. Lupa niat; is among the famous one. Harus aku rasa muntah darah; because darling that's sebangos² excuse. Ada lagi kunun cakap sakit...tapi bila bawa pigi tawaf mall laju jak kaki mengikut. Kadang tu lebih galak langkah dari yang membawa. But among the so called self-justification...aku paling ndak dapat terima yang 1 ni. Decided untuk ndak puasa sebab tu hari 'cuti'...the excitement to fast was disrupted hence the no fasting until Aidilfitri. Kira paling tongol tahap dewa gaban. Lagi malu tahap gaban bila time raya, kau jugalah yang paling meriah melebih.

It's kinda frustrating upon seeing situation as such. The true meaning of fasting macam purposely being ignored. Ditapuk, so to say. Nauzubillah...aku doa moga hati aku ditetapkan di jalan yang diredhai oleh-Nya. Jangan lah saki baki pukulan si laknat yang dirantai tu mengasi tunggang terbalik hati aku di bulan mulia ni.

Cik Err...ni kira reminder untuk kau ok. Sila cuba muhasabah diri dengan lebih jitu. Insya Allah. Moga Allah kekalkan hatiku dalam Islam...dan mati di dalamnya.

Today I had my iftar at home. I cooked spaghetti goreng, mixed veggie & sambal telur. Didn't take any pics of them though because I was pretty occupied with the cleaning process. Sedar jak, azan sudah berkumandang. Alhamdulillah for the rezeki. Doa kuat tegar supaya dapat bangun sahur...hamcoi ayam is gonna be the menu. Pancing nafsu sendiri harap boleh bangkit dari tidur.

Gotta stop here...pile of clothes need to be folded. Before ceramah bermula...harus gerak sekarang.

Wahai diri, ingat HARTA hanya sementara, DUNIA bakal ditinggalkan, AMALAN itu bekal dan kekal dalam pemerhatianNya.

ChentaHati is a year older

Alhamdulillah...finally, sahur for me. Thanks to mother who forcefully voluntarily appointed herself as my new alarm clock. She promised to accompany me sahur but she's too sleepy she could barely opened her eyes. Being the understanding daughter that I've always been, I told her to just presume her sleep. Aku sudah pun bangun jadi memang ndak logik kalau melepas lagi sahur unless aku jadi bongos gaban sambung tidur juga.

As I type this...I had just finish my meal & now indulging in my ever reliable energy booster; the coffee. Harus dramatic kan mau describe the hot drink. As promised to myself, I made hamcoi ayam. And had it together with the baki spaghetti goreng during iftar yesterday. Rugi lah siapa kahwin kau cik Err...balance yesterday's meal kau hidang laki kau.

Apa jak lah...janji time bujang mujang ni aku buat sesuka jiwa raga. I will not have any commitment issue even if I were to sahur with plain water. My only priority now is the children; apart from myself. Sudah pun aku beli cookies & sardines dorang ni kelmarin...therefore tanggungjawab sudah tertunai.

To end this entry...I would like to wish ChentaHati a very Happy Birthday.

May u have a bright bless life...more birthdays to come...and most importantly, grow wiser. As the number of candles on ur cake increase today...I hope u'll be firmer with whatever decision u've made. Nothing I could give u on this special day but solely my love.

I learned that things have became rather vague between us as the time passed by...but I'm certain my faith will keep me strong & guide me all along the path. God's willing we'll find the lit at the end of this hurdles.

Moga kita sentiasa dalam redha-Nya. Mampu berkasih sayang berlandaskan hukum-Nya. Dan bercinta kerana-Nya.

Ok...enough with muntah darah words. Gonna hit the sack already karang melepas SuPra.

Bahagia menusuk kalbu bila tahu cinta Nya tetap ada untuk ku biar selalu aku alpa dengan yang disuruh-Nya.