2 May 2012

Edisi: Grieving Phase

Something came to my knowledge recently...things I wished I would never have to hear nor came to know about. Yet much to my dismay, they did. I don't know what's the best term to describe my uneasy feeling upon hearing them. Neither could I explain the way I see & evaluate them. Guess benumbed is the perfect word to express my reaction. 

A good friend told me it's ok to grief. In fact, it's a therapy for the messy mind. To sort things out accordingly. I guess I am gonna take that advice for now. Building a temporary fortress to block upcoming things from interrupting my grieving process. 

I'm exhausted of having to fight & search. And literally dying from all the sudden attacks. Time will heal I believe but I can't guarantee how long the healing process will be. After what had happened, I don't think I'll be generous enough to give my trust anymore. The wounds are just too painful to swallow...I chose what I believe & have faith in. Between the ship & the light; I doubtlessly picked the latter.

Perhaps, it's time for me to pay my karma. The bad things I did in the past to others...slowly crawling back to me. I deserve it. I know. Like I always say to myself, Allah pays cash these days. Aku buat sekali & I will have to pay triple for it. Such expensive a toll to pay! 

Honestly, aku ndak kompromi bila agama & kepercayaan aku diperkotak katik. Call me childish, call me trip-alim, call me as u please. Dalam segala hal, Dia yang Maha Pencipta yang harus aku hormat & tunduk. I don't expect one to follow what I believe tapi cukuplah sekadar respect. 

p/s Aku dengan jayanya telah mencari penyakit.


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Ernie Khairina said...

Sabar separuh daripada iman

BibiErr Karim said...

Insya Allah, bilang orang jangan balas dengan kejahatan juga nanti pulangan balik sama kita lagi teruk. xx

Malicious Mind said...

ya betul tu sabar itu separuh dari iman.. try to be busy. you will realize masa itu bergerak dengan cepat and tak fikir banyak pasal benda tu..

BibiErr Karim said...

Alhamdulillah, kembali tenang. Harap tu gelora hati x tiba2 datang. Hihi.

Anonymous said...

Grunge: syukur semua language dlm post ini sa faham... x ada bahasa korean.... trololololol.... eh! kluar tajuk komen sa..... hahaha

BibiErr Karim said...

Out u go! Sebab kuar tajuk. Sengaja tu xmau mix language nnt si Grunge xfaham. LOL

kizzy t.fauzi said...

Tuhan tu adil & alwys watching us, guiding us babe. Ya, sabar itu separuh itu dpd iman.

Insya Allah ko pasti dapat lalui hari2 yg sukar ni =)

BibiErr Karim said...

Alhamdulillah. Kejap ja fasa sedih tu. Macam lintas langsung la orang bilang.

Buat apa fokus sma benda gitu, banyak lagi aku kena bg attention ba. Hihi tq beb.

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