Of jiwa kacau

Lesson learned on how the traffic congestion actually works. Sepanjang pengalaman mendrive ulang alik tempat kerja. That is; IF I managed to escaped the one at Mini Putrajaya, I will definitely caught myself at the Damai-Bundusan road. And vice versa. This thing happened both in the morning & evening. Pusing mana pun aku akan TETAP sangkut dalam traffic; twice a day. Jadi terima jak lah seadanya.

But I prefer to not call it traffic jammed though. At least what occurred here in KK isn't as bad as in Kolumpur. For me, sini bukan jammed but more to slow traffic movement. It still move albeit slow. Aku pernah stuck on a traffic congestion from Cheras to Midvalley for nearly 2 hours. In which dekat 1 hour aku adalah langsung ndak bergerak. Padahal, 10 minit jak boleh sampai kalau jalan clear.

Kens is still at the service center. She'll be out on Thurs. Too many blockage in her system therefore the mechanic needs to unblock them before installing the compressor. Macam biasa kalau yang AT sudah beraircond, harus yang MT akan dipass sama aku. I've been driving the MT Kancil since yesterday. Sikit patah kaki on off tekan clutch. Bila lah c Jintu akan keluar ni. Kesabaran di situ cik Err.

All of a sudden...hati jadi berat upon reaching home this evening. I don't know the reasons lie beneath this melodramatic feeling. Can't blame on the hormone anymore. Moody & head aches...tambah lagi off tune heartbeat. Lengkap deh penderitaan jiwa gue.

I feel like wanting to kick, slap & scream at this very moment. Luckily masih waras. Unstable mind is still under control. Anger masih manageable. Sampai kapan baru berakhir rasa ini? Dada macam mau pecah sudah. I have yet to find the source for this peculiar feeling. Need to list down everything; identify the potential 'candidate(s)' & solve them. Bisa² gue jadi kurang siuman kalau ini jadi panjang.

Alangkah ramai orang yang sudah putus asa namun kemudian datang kegembiraan

dan alangkah ramai orang yang ketakutan menjadi menakutkan & orang yang miskin menjadi kaya, banyak peristiwa pahit berubah manis.

Jika Allah memudahkan perkara maka mudahlah ia

kekuatannya akan meleleh & kerumitannya akan binasa.

Ya Allah...tabahkan hati hamba Mu ini.