JK

*Entry emo gaban.*

Ok aku tau adalah tidak logik berperasaan ini. Or paling precise, masih simpan rasa bongok ini. Betul sayur pahit. Rasa mahu tikam dada & take all the uncertainness out.

Perlu ka ada rasa ni? Perlu ka untuk simpan lagi? Memang toyol betul kepala otak aku ni tau.

Truth is, I've been trying my very best and hard to make that thing vanishes. Just when I thought I has successfully make it evaporates...taaadaa; that thing resurface out of no where. Out of anyone's command. ugh ugh ugh.

I know I shouldn't; by any reasons possible...be having nor keeping that thing anymore. I don't deserve another blow; as per Grunge told me this afternoon. And I am not sure myself why do I still have it? Perhaps I tried too hard to let everything go...or maybe I didn't try at all.

How I wish this could be forgotten just by blinking. Adakah ubat untuk buat certain memories disappeared? Makin hari makin banyak pula duri benda yang aku cuba telan ni. Sungguh ndak boleh jadi. Sungguh perlu motivasi lebey. And sungguh perlu stop from whining more.

But to think about it once more...I guess this is what people called the post-menstrual symptom. Unbalance hormone level causes irritable feeling. Hence I become ridiculously tetchy these past few days. Cranky & annoying. Mau makan penampar! Oh yeah teruskan blame the hormone; woman!

Oh please...sila berlalu dengan cepat.

Untuk kau yang bernama RE, sila matikan bayangan anda dari terus memburu. Aku rimas lemas. Fine, salahkan orang lain bila diri sendiri failed control emotion.

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hugs*kisses