Bikin Hati Nggak Shenang

Aduyai...someone from the past entered my life. Uninvited, unexpected & indeed; put me in great shock. Perlu kah dihalau orang yang datang cara baik? Bunyi kejam & keji ok. Too many wrongs I did to him...and I never apologized. Hmm still not going to do so sebab ego melangit tunggu mau kena panah petir. ugh. I don't deserve to be treated this nice. Bersalah gila.

Like; perlukah niat untuk amend benda yang sudah berabad ditinggal? I can't read what's in his mind...I can't predict what he's going to do next. Macam kau pernah jadi tukang ramal ah. Perlu segera kembali ke posisi perasaan yang asal. Boleh² ni barang bikin jiwa serabut. Oh yeah, serabut sebab ndak dapat guess apa plan orang. Saiko gaban.

Anyways, I've decided to do something I have long quit doing. Laura's standing next to me regarding this matter...and so do the other ladies. I did feel a bit awkward about it in the beginning...but I hope I'll do good. Wah bunyi macam mau masuk exam hall & sit for one. Hampas betul. Come to think of it, sikit lah macam exam. Difference only that I don't have to answer the Qs in paper(s). It's more like a practical test. Every action or method I use will be assessed. Which will eventually bring me to the ultimate result. When & what will the result be? Wallahualam. Itu kita cerita bila objektif tercapai.

Bunga dalam taman hati are germinating...they're producing more seeds as well. And I is like the soothing feeling. Alhamdulillah. Perkembangan lanjut akan dipantau as to avoid jadi terkinja lebey tapi hasil nan ado.

Ok lah, tonight gotta hit the sack early. Runtunan manusia di cafe this morning...gue capek banget. Nasib aja tulang ada berasas iron, gue berjuang habis². Uwek! Malam semua.

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hugs*kisses