27 January 2012

Buang Tabiat: Mulut Puaka!

Woooo today started a bit rough I presumed. I didn't mean to hurt anyone. Really. But as the saying goes; people won't easily forget what u said therefore I guess kenalah aku berlagak with the adage let bygones be bygones. Kaitan? Ignore!!

It was crystal clear that I started my morning with smile...and great mood. Super great; I rephrased. But because of some bonus questions, every tiny little great things vanished. Fine. DO NOT blame the situation or anyone after u did anything foolish Bie, ever! It's all in ur hands. U should know better on how to tackle this kinda stuff already. Phew.

I don't feel sorry with words I spilt just now; itu lah masalah problem nya sekarang. Hati batu ka aku? Gila kental kalau rasa macam cool bila mulut jadi gampangs gitu kan. Bukti kukuh that I still haven't gotten the ability to control words I uttered when I'm angry. I vented my anger the inappropriate way. For being unable to control, that I regretted the most. For words that came out, I don't.

Talked to Laura over this thing...and she said I am NO LONGER capable of being cold these days. Voicing out what I have in mind is me not wanting to be hypocrite. It is called being pure with ur feeling. Hence, what is cold then?

Having enough of that someone talking ill behind my back...probably is one of the reason for my sarcastic answer. I've hold back too much & maybe it's just about time to outburst. Seriously, kalau yang bertanya itu bukan mereka...mungkin sabar itu masih ada. Mungkin sabar itu masih mampu buat aku waras. Right, keep searching for excuses Bie.

Biarlah, benda sudah jadi. Perahu bolehlah kau tarik balik kalau terlajak. But never words u uttered. Aku menyesal kot tapi perasan cool. Hmm, honestly dalam hati memang ndak da rasa sesal ayat itu yang keluar. Cuma aku regret sebab ndak mampu kawal emosi. Nope, reaksi terkejut terkedu kelu diam seribu bahasa terpancar di muka mereka langsung ndak affect aku. Ntahlah apa kejadian ayat aku ke laut. Tunggang terbalik oii!

Pay no mind to me...I was just talking rubbish, I know. Nanti lapang sikit masa, aku update pasal my last weekend. I still owe that story to some people I've promised earlier. Aku kan selalu trip busy.

p/s To AimaKaim, gambar yang patut aku upload untuk kau kebanyakkan sudah tinggal sejarah ah. Hilang ditelan angin aku ndak tau macam mau recover. Tabahlah kau menatap pics mostly from my hape ya.

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Ernie Khairina said...

cantik layout baru.. (tiada kena mengena)

Malicious Mind said...

sabar ko. biasalah orang cakap belakang. its good that you can vent out your feelings, good for health. kalau aku rasa depressed segala, i would turn to my good friends as well. its therapeutic

BibiErr Karim said...

@Ernie: Loving it, maybe stay lama ni sma ni layout. xoxo

@Dana: Good for health kan. Dari ditahan2 tu trus makan hati sndr. Ada masa mmg perlu diam, ada masa mau jg tu dikasi rasa. Glad kita ada good friends yg we can rely on.

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